Total pages in book: 120
Estimated words: 109976 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 550(@200wpm)___ 440(@250wpm)___ 367(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 109976 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 550(@200wpm)___ 440(@250wpm)___ 367(@300wpm)
Which I admit has been a great help. With him here it’s hard to stay focused on my fears. But I’m not dumb enough not to know that it can’t last. Now I’m afraid of being too much of a burden. It’s a never-ending cycle. Even I am getting tired of my own frailty, but hard as I try, I just can’t seem to overcome the fear.
“What if I never get over being afraid?” I asked in all seriousness, my voice sounding suspiciously like one of those people I used to hate and think were too weak before I met and married the most evil person on the planet.
“Then I’ll continue working from home.” He’s so blasé about the whole thing, such a contrast to Vance. Sometimes I wonder if it’s all a façade and then I berate myself for judging him by the same standards. There’s nothing vague about him, no pretense. In fact he’s embarrassingly blunt and to the point. Something I appreciate more than words can say.
I’ve found myself testing him a time or two without even realizing it, until I’d turn to find him watching me with this knowing look on his face. I’d apologize and he’d just shrug it off. When I get too annoying even to my own self, or when my fears have over powered me to the point that I start to hyperventilate, he’d usually just drag me off to bed for a couple of hours, and somehow that always seems to work.
Now I just curled back into his side with my head on his shoulder and his hand held between both of mine. He turned his head and kissed my hair but said nothing more as I went back to my own thoughts.
Greece had been amazing, after getting over the shock of meeting his parents so soon after we landed. I never had the chance to be uncomfortable with them, which might have been the case had I had time to dwell on the first meeting between us.
His mom, and dad, were both rather laid back and supportive. Nothing at all like I expected a former CEO and his high society wife to be. After the hell that was my marriage I’ve learned what signs to look for. They had none that I could tell. There were no hidden meanings behind what my father in law said, and my mother in law only has wine with dinner.
It helps that my new father in law is still head over heels in love with his wife, and that when we spoke, he treated me more like a daughter than the stranger who’d married his son. So I’d lucked out there. But once the story went live I had a whole new fear to worry about.
It didn’t take long for the gossip to start, and though Gavin has been shielding me from the worst of it, I do have that nifty new laptop he’d bought me. All I have to do is Google my name. Once he found out I was doing this he had a fit. I overheard him on the phone threatening to sue someone and there my anxiety began.
He doesn’t even discuss any of the rumors with me, and have forbidden Kevin and Dave from doing so. His only interest seems to be me and making me happy. When we talk about my past he has yet to make me feel like the fool I’ve been, and instead has constantly pointed out reasons for my behavior.
All in all I’d say though it’s only been a week, he’s proven to be even better than my dreams and I guess I’m just afraid of it all coming to a crashing end. Whatever he’s decided to do about the senator hasn’t been shared with me either. In fact, he doesn’t even mention his name other than when discussing my past.
It’s a double-edged sword. On the one hand my anxiety has grown less, and on the other I’m dying to know what’s going on with the older man. I can’t imagine that he’s too happy with the fact that I got married so soon after Vance’s death. Not only did I get married, but I had the nerve to marry someone more powerful than he is.
It’s this last that keeps me on my toes, wondering how he’s going to make me pay for that infraction. I don’t kid myself that he’s given up, or that I’m in the clear.
Still, I’m trying my best to be positive and to believe in Gavin when he says he’d never let anyone harm me. That’s why I’m about to do something I would never have contemplated in a million years had I not had him on my side.
“I spoke to Celeste today, she wants to get together for lunch.” I felt him tense up before relaxing again and pulling me closer to his side.