Total pages in book: 88
Estimated words: 83586 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 418(@200wpm)___ 334(@250wpm)___ 279(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83586 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 418(@200wpm)___ 334(@250wpm)___ 279(@300wpm)
We’d done this what felt like a hundred times, but it was still never enough. I sneaked my finger between his ass cheeks, rubbed his hole with the tip, circling it before I eased it inside. He immediately shuddered, or hell, maybe it was me and I couldn’t tell. It didn’t really matter. It was always like we were part of each other anyway, like Jasper was an extension of me and I of him.
“Fuck, I like this,” he said as I pushed my finger in and out of him. “It’s almost like I need it, like it makes me feel…whole.”
“I love bein’ the one who gets to give it to you.” I added a second finger, fucked him with them, sometimes rubbing his prostate and other times just letting him feel full, letting him know I was inside him.
“Why do I need this so much?” Before I could answer him, Jasper leaned in and took my mouth, tasting every part of it, nibbling my lip and sucking my tongue.
We lazed around together, just kissing and making out while I fingered him. His ass was so tight and hot, like it was made for me to be inside.
“So good,” Jasper said, pushing against me like he couldn’t get close enough, like he was trying to ride my legs, and damn, that felt good. Thinking of that made my dick harder.
“You don’t know what this does to me, how it feels to see you like this, knowing I’m the only person who’s ever been inside you and the only one who ever will. This is my hole, Jasp.”
“Fuck!” he cried out, his body vibrating, his dick rubbing against my thigh. “I need…”
“What? What do you need, baby? Whatever it is, you know I’ll give it to you.”
“Please.” He was breathless, so much want in that one word, in the way his body touched mine. “More.”
“This?” I asked, working three fingers into his ass. He pushed back against my hand like he wanted the whole damn thing up there.
“Fuck me,” fell from his lips, and we both froze. “I…” His eyes darted around, pupils wide like he couldn’t believe he’d asked it. I couldn’t either, but I wanted it so damn bad. And then his gaze met mine. There was clarity there, the truth taking root inside him and Jasper being okay with it. “I want you inside me. Want you to fuck me. Need you to be closer to me than anyone ever has, as close as you can be.”
“Yes, God, yes. I might die. I swear I feel like busting out of my skin at just the thought of havin’ my dick in your hole.” While I knew this was partly about sex, it was about more than that. It was about connection, about having one other thing between us that we would never have with anyone else, something that was ours. It was about comforting each other and showing in a whole new way how much we loved each other.
“I got tested after Lacey and before we started this.”
“I’ve been tested since then too.”
Jasper nodded, and like with everything else, we were on the same page—we were doing this bare because that was another thing we were giving each other.
I grabbed the lube and slicked up my cock. My balls had never been so full. I was scared the second I was inside him, I’d shoot my load.
“How should we do this?” I asked.
“I don’t know. What do you think?”
And somehow, I knew this was another way to take care of him, that Jasper needed me to control this. “I wanna look at you while I’m inside you. I want to see your face when I make you come.”
“Okay.”
I grabbed a pillow and said, “Lift up.” I’d never had anal before, and yeah, I’d seen it in porn, but it was totally different to be doing it for the first time.
I shoved the pillow beneath him, tilting his hips up higher. Jasper spread his legs, pulled them back, eyes filled with fear and body trembling.
“I’ll make it good for you. Don’t care if it kills me, this’ll be good for you.”
“I know, Sutt.”
And damn, was I glad to hear that. Just to be safe, I lubed up his hole. I’d just had three fingers inside him, so he was open for me. I looked down at him, legs spread for me, face flushed, cock hard and leaking. He was the prettiest thing I’d ever seen.
“Tell me if it hurts or if you need me to stop.” I was on my knees in front of him. I took his legs and placed them on my shoulders. “You look so sexy like this.”
With a hand at the base of my cock, I leaned forward, pressed against him, watched as my crown breached Jasper’s body. “Oh God, Jasp. You don’t even know.”