Total pages in book: 120
Estimated words: 109976 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 550(@200wpm)___ 440(@250wpm)___ 367(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 109976 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 550(@200wpm)___ 440(@250wpm)___ 367(@300wpm)
My eyes flew open some time later and my heart raced with dread when I thought it had all just been another dream like so many others I’d had before. Until I looked down at the head next to mine and felt the warmth of her body close to me.
It was real, she was real; and so was the joy in my heart. I tightened the arm I had wrapped around her still, pulling her closer onto my chest and smelled her hair as it tickled my nose.
I pulled back to look down at her gorgeous face and felt pure love well up inside me. Until her I never knew I had it in me to be this soft. Never knew I was capable of feeling this kind of tenderness for someone, she makes me weak.
This love thing is nuts, because as weak as she makes me, I seem to get some kind of strength from loving her as well. Like a whole new side of me had finally been awakened. I felt almost invincible while holding her in my arms.
“You asleep?” I kissed her closed lids as I folded her into me. She’d also made me stupid it appears since it was obvious she was dead to the world. That too gave me pleasure, the fact that I’d worn her out with my loving. Such a small thing, but what man doesn’t like knowing he’d pleasured his woman well?
I felt another smile begin in my heart and spread across my face as I drew her in even closer as if trying to blend our bodies into one. She felt perfect there against me, like she’d been made to fit in my arms. I’m convinced she was.
I had just a moment’s fear that this love I felt for her would turn me into a different man. I could already sense the changes in me and we’d only just begun. But it didn’t matter, whatever changes she made could only be for the better I’m sure.
I already knew she was the best part of me and had suffered knowing it all along. That’s why it had been hell living without her by my side. Like existing without a very essential part of me. But that was in the past, never again. I won’t be without her ever again in this lifetime.
I took the time now that she was still asleep to look my fill as I tried to understand what it was about her that captivated me so. I know it has to be more than her beauty, I’ve seen beauty before. The world is full of beautiful women and I’ve dated my share. None had ever made me want to lay down my life for them.
So what is it about her that tugs at the deepest part of me? She makes me want things I never gave much thought to, things I never thought I needed to make me complete. It’s a miracle that I’d survived without her for this long.
With her in my arms I imagine a future of light and laughter. A life vastly different from the one I’d mapped out for myself when I thought I couldn’t have her. My mind was wrapped around shit I never even contemplated so I knew it was all for her.
Things I’ve always overlooked before and never knew I cared about, I find myself wanting with her, only her. And I plan to have it all. All that I’d worked for was now hers, whatever it takes to make her happy by my side I’m ready and willing to do. These were the thoughts flitting through my head as I watched her sleep. I’m so fucked.
I trailed my fingertip along her cheek and watched her breathe as I made silent promises to her. I have no idea what her life was like before, but I knew that no one could ever love her the way I do. Because what I feel for her, doesn’t seem of this world.
It seems larger than life, like something that comes from my very soul, something over which I have no control. It’s not flowery sweet, well not just that. It makes me feel equal parts weak and strong as if she’d tapped into something hidden deep inside. Something that had lain dormant until she came along.
There’s so much I want to share with her. I want to give her the world, but even more, for the first time in my life, I want to give someone all of me. For a man like me that’s a frightening prospect, or it would’ve been with anyone else but her.
But I innately trust her without question and that too is new for me. I’ve never known that with a woman before. Never even contemplated having that kind of love and trust with anyone, until now. I didn’t expect that it would make me feel this free, this invigorated at what the future might bring.