Total pages in book: 145
Estimated words: 136915 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 685(@200wpm)___ 548(@250wpm)___ 456(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 136915 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 685(@200wpm)___ 548(@250wpm)___ 456(@300wpm)
I shoved to my feet and she immediately cupped my face and almost desperately pulled me in for a kiss. I wedged my hips between her thighs, parting her wide, my bulge pressing against her pussy. I didn’t care if I got her lust all over my clothes.
She let out a breathless giggle. “I wanted to come with you kissing me, that’s why I told you to kiss me.”
I brushed my lips over her ear. “We can still make that happen.”
Her arms came around my neck and she pressed even closer, kissing me almost desperately. I wrapped my arms around her, feeling her heart slamming against her ribs, the same erratic rhythm as my own. Our lips slowed and I closed my eyes, pressed my nose into the crook of her neck. We stayed like this for a long time, wrapped up in each other. I tightened my hold on her, my palm stroking along her hair.
“I don’t want this to end,” I growled.
Greta let out a melancholic sigh, her arms loosening around me. After a moment, I allowed her to pull back.
The wistfulness in her eyes felt like a gut punch. “You have to fly back in two hours.”
“I know. That’s not what I mean. You said no when I asked you to marry me. But maybe you’ll say yes to this.”
“An affair?” Greta whispered.
I stroked her cheekbone, then her lips. “Not an affair. This is more. Fuck. I don’t know what it is. It’s what’s left of what could have been. I don’t care as long as I can keep seeing you, talking to you, kissing you.”
“Behind Cressida’s back.”
“I can tell her there’s someone else if it makes you feel better. I wouldn’t tell her a name or anything of course. She doesn’t think I’m faithful anyway. I wouldn’t care if she was with someone else.”
“That’s not what marriage is about.”
I laughed darkly. “I know.”
“So we’d meet here whenever you can carve out some time and a good excuse?”
“I don’t care where we meet, as long as we do.”
Greta looked toward the two horses that were slowly trotting our way. One of them was very thin. Another creature she’d saved. “Normally I always want to do the right thing, but with you…I think I’ll choose wrong.”
I motioned at the animals all around us. “You’re doing enough good already. Being with me won’t undo the good of your existence.”
Greta laughed. “That’s not how it works. You can’t collect bonus points so you can act wrong on occasion.”
“I always do the wrong thing so I wouldn’t know. Do you not want to see me again?”
Greta buried her face in my neck. “I miss you already. No, I can’t bear the idea of not seeing you again. The last year without you has been hard, so much harder than I thought.”
I breathed a sigh of relief and hugged her tightly again. I put my cheek down on the top of her head. We both didn’t move. I wondered what went on in her head. Was she trying to come to terms with what we’d just decided. I didn’t bother. I’d given up on myself when it came to reason around Greta.
I wasn’t sure how I could possibly make this work. How often could I disappear for a weekend to visit her? How long before someone would notice something? And then there was another thing. While I wasn’t possessive at all when it came to Cressida, the mere idea of Greta being with anyone else made my blood boil.
“I know this is hypocritical of me, and definitely an asshole thing to say, but I can’t share you, Greta. If we keep this up, I need you to be mine only. I don’t want you near any other men.”
Greta looked up and shrugged. “It seems like a one-sided deal, definitely a bit hypocritical, yes.” She pursed her lips and I was sure she’d just give up on us entirely. I knew I had absolutely no right to ask faithfulness of her, not in our situation, but it would tear me apart if I saw her with someone else. I wanted her for myself. “I don’t have any interest in other men, and I don’t think that’ll change.”
“To be honest, I’d probably kill anyone who dares to touch you.”
I was being deadly serious and she needed to understand just how obsessed I was with her.
“That’s something Nevio would say and do.”
I hated being compared to him but in this case, Greta had a point. I would turn into a raging madman if another man touched her. “Then you know how serious it is.”
Greta kissed me. “I won’t be with someone else.” With our faces still close together, she whispered, “But I don’t want you to be with anyone either…I mean…” She closed her eyes with an ironic smile. “I know you have to be with Cressida, but I don’t want you to be with anyone else.” She shook her head, her eyes still closed.