Total pages in book: 65
Estimated words: 60965 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 305(@200wpm)___ 244(@250wpm)___ 203(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 60965 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 305(@200wpm)___ 244(@250wpm)___ 203(@300wpm)
“Why?” Maddie sounds horrified, and it only makes me feel worse.
“It’s just that he did something,” I say haltingly, and my stomach churns as I look back to the gold flecks on the mug in front of me.
“Something like what?” Kat seems hesitant.
“It was something from a while ago, but it hurt me,” I say then close my eyes, wishing they could just know. Wishing I didn’t have to say it for them to understand.
“Did he mean to hurt you?” Kat asks and there’s a pain in her gaze. I know it’s because of what she and Evan are going through right now. I wish she’d talk to me about that, rather than feeling like I’m prying when I try to ask how she’s holding up.
“I’m sure he didn’t,” Maddie says softly, but her brow is furrowed with sympathy as she waits for my response.
“It wasn’t meant to, no, but it was meant to hurt someone else and it wasn’t right.” I see Maddie and Kat exchange glances.
“What did he do?” Maddie asks.
“Maybe he’s not here because he thinks you want to keep your distance for now since he was arrested?” Kat says, delicately hinting around the fact that I’m very self-conscious of negative publicity.
“I don’t care about that,” I tell her bluntly. “He’s not here now, because when I left…” I can’t finish. I can’t say the words because I’m ashamed that I didn’t answer him. I’ve known I still love him. I know damn well I do, and I did then. I just didn’t want to admit it.
“You upset him?” Kat says, taking a guess.
“I knew I might not see him again… and I still didn’t say it back. He said I love you, and I didn’t say it back.”
“It’s just words,” Kat says, “Actions are what count. And if you love him, go for him. Fix it. You can always fix it.” She’s full of so much confidence. So much conviction, I have to believe her although part of me wonders if she’s telling me what she’s telling herself when it comes to her own relationship.
“Go to him,” Maddie says sweetly.
“Don’t you want him?” Kat presses when I don’t respond, too caught up in my own thoughts.
Had I known the truth, I never would have gotten close, but he didn’t give me that chance. He pulled me in and drowned me before I realized I couldn’t breathe. I’ll forever be his. All the sins and secrets could never tear us apart. We both have them. But if we have each other… they don’t matter.
Maddie nods her head in agreement. “Just because you’re fighting over something that happened before this doesn’t mean anything.” Her voice is firm. “He needs you.”
And I need him. We always have, both in our own way.
All three of us turn our heads to the door as I hear it open with a loud thud. My heart hammers in my chest, pounding harder and harder as I see him. Mason.
The breath leaves my lungs and I nearly fall off the stool at the sight of him.
He doesn’t look at me or even in this direction as he closes the door and tucks the keycard into his pocket. He slips off his boots easily, as if he belongs here and it’s only natural.
As if he hadn’t kept me waiting here for him for hours.
When he finally looks up, something breaks in me. The walls crumble, and I want to run to him. To climb off the stool and embrace him.
To thank him for taking the fall. For protecting me. For loving me even if he brought all this hell along with him. To check him over and make sure he’s okay.
But I’m frozen in place. Paralyzed by the sight of him. He rolls his broad shoulders before tossing the jacket over the sofa and finally looking up at me. His steel gray eyes pierce through me, questioning only for a moment before turning his attention to the other two women.
Kat’s hand squeezes mine briefly before she whispers, “Do you want us to get out of here?”
“Yeah,” Maddie answers for me. “We’ll see you tomorrow?” Maddie asks with wide eyes.
I nod my head, but still I can’t speak. I can’t answer either of them. He’s here. All I can do is be thankful that he’s here.
He’s standing right there, only inches away from me. I can still feel the coldness from the outdoors around him. But it doesn’t belong to him in the least. His tanned skin is pink on his cheeks and the tip of his nose. My fingers itch to reach out to him, to touch him and pass the chill of the air and feel his hot skin.
I’m vaguely aware of Kat and Maddie leaving, the sounds of keys jingling and each saying hello and then goodbye to Mason.