Wild at Heart Read Online Christina Lee, Riley Hart

Categories Genre: Contemporary, M-M Romance Tags Authors: ,
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Total pages in book: 83
Estimated words: 79185 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 396(@200wpm)___ 317(@250wpm)___ 264(@300wpm)
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Our families didn’t associate because of a long-ago dispute between our great-grandfathers, who used to be friends and business associates. But when Porter’s dad died, out of desperation, his mom applied for a position as our cook. My parents encouraged it and offered her the job, they’d told me, hoping it would help soften the grudge his family held against ours.

I remember the first day I saw Porter standing near one of the paddocks, his eyes alight with wonder at the horses, and as I approached, his expression changed to a scowl. As if he remembered he was supposed to be mad at the Sullivans. By the time we’d turned eighteen, I had grown fond of that scowl and all his other moods.

No one on the ranch knew we’d had a thing, though I suspected Wade might’ve, going by the looks he’d give us when we sped away to our special place near the stream and then again upon our return. But he never said a word. My parents still don’t know I’m bisexual, and definitely no one else on the ranch either. I go into town to get my needs met from men or women, and if we’re together as a group, I only flirt with women.

I don’t know why I’m still in the closet, honestly. Maybe it’s because I carried a torch for Porter for years, probably still do, and figured I’d never feel that way about another man again.

Or woman, for that matter. Aimee and I were good friends and compatible in the ways that counted, so we tried to make it work—maybe she did more than me. It wasn’t that I didn’t love her. I just didn’t love her enough.

After Faith died, it was just me, and my parents continued to instill a good work ethic and business sense since I’ll be inheriting this ranch. They missed her so much, so I worked hard to toe the line and earn their respect and that of the men in my charge. And that’s important when we’re at the mercy of Mother Nature on this land.

Marrying Aimee was also my parents’ dream, so we’d have the stability of two ranches behind us, as well as, eventually, little ones—our own heirs. But it didn’t work out, and I feel guilty about that. Haven’t had it in me to seriously date again or bring anyone else around, so my parents didn’t get their hopes up.

I shut down those painful thoughts to focus on my horse, the cattle, and the rocky terrain.

By nightfall, everyone is exhausted. We set up camp in the valley and get the animals watered and settled near the brook. We fill up our canteens with fresh water and purifying tablets, while Jeb, one of our ranch hands, starts a fire so we can heat up the food we’d brought.

We tell stories as we eat, then pass around Mom’s cookies. At least the ones left after our earlier break on the other side of the foothills.

One of my favorite things on the planet is being out here and sleeping under the stars. That’s when I miss him most. Not that Porter and I ever got the opportunity to spend a night alone under the night sky, but I’d dreamed about it. Unfortunately, we were always in the company of my dad and the cattle hands, though enjoying those times nonetheless.

I get situated in my sleeping bag and lie back to get some shut-eye. But it won’t come. Instead, I look up at the stars and imagine telling him about the new constellations I’ve read about in one of the dozens of facts-laden books Porter would tease me about. I wonder where in the world Porter is and if he ever thinks of me too…though I doubt it. Why else would he refuse to see me after his momma died? He was as resistant as I was persistent, one time even waiting all night outside his door with the casserole and sympathy card Mom sent with me.

And then a few days later he’d vanished on the wind. Oh, I’ve heard rumors over the years of a hotheaded cattle hand who travels from one ranch to another, working the land in between drinking and fistfights with whoever dares question him. I keep imagining all that anger is directed at the world because he feels he doesn’t have anyone left anymore. And fuck, that kills me most of all. Why didn’t he come to me? I would’ve welcomed him with open arms. My parents too.

Maybe he feels he has something to prove to the world. He’s become damned good at breaking horses. An expert, I hear. Apparently, when the Bureau of Land Management does a wild horse round-up in the indigenous homelands, Porter is one of the men called to help.

He’s better at it than I’ve ever been, and that means he’s been able to keep working. Maybe that’s why so many ranches put up with his attitude. He’s always had this quiet way with horses. Like silent communication that soothed them and made them docile when he was around.


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