Total pages in book: 218
Estimated words: 209489 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1047(@200wpm)___ 838(@250wpm)___ 698(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 209489 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1047(@200wpm)___ 838(@250wpm)___ 698(@300wpm)
I knew he was asking because he didn’t totally trust me not to backstab him, more than likely. He didn’t worry about his food because he could smell if I put something weird in it. Could hear me if I spit in it. But he’d been here for about two weeks now, and he was finally becoming suspicious about my intentions?
I guess it had taken him this long to say more than three words to me at a time too.
“Explain.”
I gave him a look.
If I’d wanted to try something, I already would have. He had to know that, so he was just being nosy, and that put me on edge. Putting on the mitts, I took the trays out of the oven. “My grandpa had a stroke about six years ago, and we didn’t find him until it was too late, and my grandma got sick after that.” That same lingering sadness started to rise inside of me, mixed with grief and anger. Anger at the lives that had been so altered for things none of us had asked for.
Grief at the love and the life that I’d missed out on.
They had been my whole world. The boulder onto which I’d built my life. My grandparents had been the one thing that had never changed when everything else had been so replaceable and temporary. They were the only people who had ever really known me. The only people who had ever loved me. And they were gone now.
My nose stung as I shrugged and set the pan on the top of the oven. “We moved around a lot,” I offered up as another explanation because that part too was the truth.
Hopefully he wouldn’t ask why or ask for specifics on just how much we had bounced around.
“What was your grandmother sick with?”
That was a weird question. “She had colon cancer.” I didn’t tell him that she had avoided going to the doctor for years, and how much it had haunted me that I hadn’t forced her to go.
Not that you could have made her do anything she didn’t want to do. And that was exactly what she’d told me too.
Fortunately, my answer must have satisfied him because he didn’t say anything for a minute. It wasn’t until I had grabbed tongs to get the veggies that shared the tray with the steaks I had broiled that he chose to say even more words. “What are you hiding then?”
CHAPTER
SIX
His eyes were locked on me as he sat at the table, one hand braced on the top, his other one gripping his thigh.
He looked ridiculous. Just… absolutely out of place at the little breakfast table that had to be older than he was. I could easily picture him at a giant dining room table with silver candlestick holders and a maid coming up behind him to serve his food. There was something about his energy, about the high tilt of his chin, that seemed so… arrogant.
But I guess when you were what he was, anybody would be. I’d probably be insufferable.
“What are you hiding?” he asked again, taking his time with every word, staring at me while he did.
I tried my best to look innocent. I couldn’t get too riled up. “A lot of things, mostly stuff in my nightstand.” I mean, there was truth in that. And if he hadn’t already known what was in there, he would now, but I’d rather him focus on that than anything else. If it would distract him enough to change the subject, I would take out all my vibrators and give him a presentation on each one of their pros and cons.
He ticked his head to the side, not falling for my bullshit even a little bit. “You’re hiding… something.”
That wasn’t a question.
I lifted a shoulder and tried my hardest to keep that easy expression on my face. “A lot of things, but isn’t everyone?”
He didn’t buy that either.
I had never done anything seriously wrong in my life. The shittiest thing I’d ever done was illegally download music during our dial-up internet days two decades ago. I was a perfect angel when I wasn’t mad, and I was rarely mad. I didn’t put myself into enough positions to get angry. At least that was the kind of energy I tried to put out in the universe.
He got squinty. “You live in… the middle of nowhere. You don’t… have family or friends or hardly any belongings. You don’t leave the house.”
I held up my finger, telling myself I wasn’t going to let his comment about friends get to me again. “It isn’t like I’m going to leave the gate open for the FedEx driver to pull up and see you through the window.”
Nothing I was saying was getting through to him though. “Who… are you hiding from?” he had the nerve to ask as he emotionally kicked my own feet out from under me once again.