Total pages in book: 121
Estimated words: 117820 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 589(@200wpm)___ 471(@250wpm)___ 393(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 117820 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 589(@200wpm)___ 471(@250wpm)___ 393(@300wpm)
We were always destined for terrible things, I just never could have imagined it would be this.
“What you thinkin’?” I ask as he moves around my kitchen looking for a bottle opener so we can have a beer to wash down our dinner.
He pops the lids off and tosses both into the trash. I take the beer he offers, and swallow a long pull with lip smacking satisfaction.
“Not thinking of nothin’,” he responds, rubbing his face with his hands before leaning over his plate and twisting some spaghetti around his fork. “I’m all thinked out.”
I know that feeling well too.
“What are you thinking?”
“About you,” I honestly state and fill my mouth with food.
“What about me?”
“About us, I guess. It’s all a little confusing.”
“What’s confusing about it?”
I motion between the both of us with the bottom of my bottle and take a smaller gulp this time. “We’re just acting like no time has passed.”
“Yeah, and?” His blue eyes scan my face. Does he really not feel any confusion about our relationship at this point.
“And I just don’t know what this is or what you want it to be.”
“It is what it is, don’t want it to be nothin’ beyond what it is.”
I laugh, confused and conflicted. “That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the only answer I’ve got right now.” He stuffs more food in his mouth and winks. “Stop thinkin’ just eat, drink, try to chill. We need a shut off point or it’s gonna tear us apart.”
I puff out my cheeks and place my fork on my almost finished plate. “Never been able to just chill. Can’t remember a night where I had any peace.”
“That why you won’t let me fuck you again?”
I stiffen and I know it’s visible because his lips twitch into a smirk.
“Yeah, that’s how your body gets when I touch you.”
I narrow my eyes. “That’s not true.”
“It is. But it’s okay.” He licks clean his lips and winks at me. “I’m hoping the beer will soften you up.”
My jaw drops and I almost laugh. “I guess I’m just a bit tense.”
“Yeah no shit.”
“Kane,” I admonish, and he smiles again, for real this time, not just a smirk.
“You’ll definitely soften up when I eat you later.”
My eyes widen and I almost choke on my beer.
His grin is mischievous and boyish. “Remember when you used to get pissed at me, all I’d have to do is drop to my knees and worship your pussy. You’d still be pissed but you were too polite to leave or throw me out after I made you come.” His teeth trap his lip and then it pings free. Fuck. “I always made you come. Always. Never failed. Fuckin’ loved it. Loved conquering your body like that.”
His words have me pressing my thighs together. “Stop.”
“Even better was you’d completely forget you were pissed and why you were pissed.”
My eyes become slits and he chuckles like it’s funny when it absolutely isn’t.
“Even my daddy called you firecracker when you weren’t listenin’, said I needed a girl like you to keep me in a good place.” He finishes his beer and his smile fades. “He was right. I was a shit after you vanished. Didn’t do good things to people. Joined the Renegades for a while and caused all kinds of trouble, hurt some people.”
“But you looked so put together when I came.”
“I turned my life around, stopped hurting my dad and focused on my work. Took a few courses in Austin.”
“I’m proud of you for that. Wish you could’a found better than me.”
“You make it sound like there is better than you. You’re forgettin’ all the shit we did together, all the fun we had.” He stacks my plate on top of his.
“Not forgetting any of it, trust me. I cherish every moment. It’s just painful.”
“It doesn’t have to be.”
I sigh a heavy breath and stand. “What’s the plan now? Where do we go from here?”
“We find our kid.”
“That’s not gonna happen overnight.”
“I know.”
I frown. “So you’re what, going to stay here until we find her? Your daddy needs you.”
“My kid needs me. My daddy will be fine without me. Unless you want to follow me back to Faceless? Set up shop there? I’m assuming the only reason you stayed here is because of Webber?”
I nod. “That and I needed out.”
“Does it fall under Illinois jurisdiction? Where was Righteous Hill?”
“Texas, east of Wichita Falls. So it’s not Illinois jurisdiction anymore but Webber keeps in touch with their offices for updates. Calls weekly. I call too.”
He nods softly. “Y’all have really put the work in then.”
I move around the table and slide onto his lap. “I’m sorry it’s not helping much.”
“Me too. But it just means we need a new angle.”
I don’t reply, I just detangle his hair with my fingers and pull it back from his face. “Can you ever forgive me for what I’ve done to you?”