Total pages in book: 78
Estimated words: 74291 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 371(@200wpm)___ 297(@250wpm)___ 248(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 74291 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 371(@200wpm)___ 297(@250wpm)___ 248(@300wpm)
“No,” I tell her, turning. My eyes instantly lock onto her. “I’m going to beg…” My voice trails off because I’m standing there drinking in the woman I adore. I drink her in, her sun-kissed blonde hair shining, her violet eyes full of tears. The lavender sundress she’s wearing joins in and it all comes together to make her more beautiful than even I remembered.
The thing that freezes my voice and makes any further words impossible though is the obvious swell of her stomach.
Ana. My Ana, is… pregnant.
Chapter Fifty-Nine
Ana
I see the exact moment Roman discovers I’m pregnant. I’m okay with it. After spending the night in his arms, him holding me even as he was sleeping, him whispering my name when I curled into him, I knew. He might not have said it and maybe he never will, but Roman loves me. That was evident in the way he came unraveled without me, in the way he held me last night. He loves me. I can live without the words because I feel them.
Still, even knowing that, this morning I was nervous. I was prepared to fight Roman tooth and nail to get him to admit that he needed me. Knowing he’s caving this easily makes it all okay.
“Ana?” he asks, a look of disbelief on his face and maybe, just maybe…happiness. My hand goes to my stomach, rubbing it softly.
“Surprise?” I half tell, half ask.
“You’re pregnant?”
“Yeah,” I tell him, panicking. Is he going to get mad about this? Because I didn’t tell him? Will he see that there was no way I was going to force him to accept me in his life, if he didn’t want me?
“We’re having a baby?”
I bite my lip and try to remember to breathe.
“A little boy.”
“You already know?” he asks, his eyes moving from my stomach to my face, as he walks to me.
“Yeah.” I’m unsure of what else to say.
“We’re having a baby,” he whispers, dropping to his knees in front of me. His large hand caresses each side of my stomach, and then he places a kiss on the middle of it. Little Roman apparently doesn’t like that, because he kicks out against his dad’s kiss. Roman’s head snaps back and he looks up at me.
“I think he might be a football player,” I tell him, smiling. I place my hand over one of Roman’s and bring it back to the spot on my stomach where the baby likes to push. In just a minute or two, I feel the fluttering sensation as the baby delivers a well-timed kick.
“Oh my God. That’s our baby,” Roman says, at a loss for words and acting in ways I never thought I’d see him.
“It is,” I tell him, my fingers tangling in his hair.
“We’re going to have a baby,” he says again, but I see the happiness on his face and something shifts inside of me.
“We are. We’re going to be a family, Roman.”
“You’re never leaving me, Ana. I can’t make it without you,” he says, allowing the fear to cloud his eyes briefly before that bone-melting dominant look returns, and his hand wraps in my hair. He brings our lips together for a kiss and right before his claims mine, he murmurs against them. “You’re never getting away from me again, pet.” I let his claim echo through my body, healing the empty spots inside of me that are remaining, and take his kiss. I don’t answer, because there’s nothing else to say.
I never want to leave Roman. I’m home to stay.
Epilogue
Ana
Roman Allen Anthes was born on November 14th at three in the morning after making me go through forty-two hours of grueling labor and nearly causing his father to go insane. It was all worth it though, and when I look at the child who is turning six months old today, I couldn’t imagine life being more complete.
“Is mommy’s baby, hungry?” I ask him, reaching down into the crib. He instantly stops crying and he reaches out to me with his little hands, knowing what comes next.
I take him to the rocking chair that Roman surprised me with when we were fixing up the nursery. It’s a beautiful handmade piece that I will cherish the rest of my life. I pull the strap from my dress and adjust my breast so the baby can begin to nurse. He latches on and greedily drinks up. It took some getting used to, but I love breastfeeding. It sounds hokey, but it feels as if by doing it, I’m affirming nature’s grand design. I even feel beautiful, even if my body is never going to get back to the shape it was in before Roman Jr. decided to wreck it.
I begin rocking slowly. Not enough movement to jar him, but just a soft, rhythmic movement that he likes. I hum his favorite lullaby. Pretty soon, his hungry grunts and swallows fill the room as his little hand wraps around my finger. I kiss his forehead and commit this to memory. Another beautiful memory in a lifetime of them. That’s what life with Roman has given me. I’m the luckiest woman on the face of the Earth. I feel that in my soul. Roman and I might have started off rocky, but the ride was more than worth it. I wouldn’t change a thing.