Total pages in book: 149
Estimated words: 141255 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 706(@200wpm)___ 565(@250wpm)___ 471(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 141255 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 706(@200wpm)___ 565(@250wpm)___ 471(@300wpm)
Sometimes too, it’s so gentle I cry when I orgasm because I can feel how much he loves me as it’s etched into his features. He worships my body and stares into my eyes whether he makes love to me or whether he’s fucking me with this passion, this fire that I will never ever get tired of.
Tommy and his brother Dario decided that Dare is going to transition the company and the subsidiaries and then once it’s as squeaky clean as it can possibly get, some or most of it is being sold. Tommy’s not out of the loop but Dare is hands-on. They hired a consulting firm to help and he and Tommy talk pretty much daily over the computer.
When Tommy and I got to Costa Rica and got married on a beach at sunset it was almost perfect. It was breathtaking, exactly what I wanted, staring into the eyes of the man I loved with our toes in the sand and the sky a dozen brilliant colors. The only missing ingredient was the people from my life before Tommy, but I came to terms with the fact that it couldn’t be helped. We need to be incognito for now and I would never want to put the people I love in unnecessary danger. So, this is how it has to be.
I sent them a letter before we left that said I was taking an extended trip and I plan to get word to them again soon so that they don’t worry. I might have Tess mail them a letter soon so that it’s not traceable to where I am.
Tommy suggested I visit to say goodbye before we moved and even talked about sneaking them to our wedding like he had to do with his family. But, I’m not the same girl I was a few months ago and I didn’t want to bring them into the orbit of the danger surrounding this family. I feel like I’ve grown into a different person. I’ve known so much fear, seen so much death, and I’ve felt so much pain that I’d hate to cloud their light and airy lives with that. They probably wouldn’t know me anymore. They’d look at me and see I’m different and they’d worry. Or they’d be sad. And if I looked too long at them, I might be sad too. I might be sad for my lost innocence. I don’t need that. Regret won’t help me.
Tommy got angry when I kept making excuses about not bringing them to the wedding and then I blurted some of what I really felt and he got really upset. He blames himself for this. I blame our fathers. I also can’t help but blame my mother, too. She gave up. She gave up on life. She gave up on me. She fixed nothing before she left. She left so many things at loose ends and so many questions unanswered and I know she was hurt and sad and depressed, but I can’t help but be angry with her for not thinking about how her actions would affect me. That’s what mothers are supposed to do – protect their babies.
As for our safety, I was hoping that here we’d have a fresh canvas, a place where we could move on and live without Tommy feeling like he’s got to be looking over his shoulder all the time. But so far, that isn’t happening. Tommy got fake identities for us so that we could slip off the grid for a while. He knows that there’s a chance that if what he did is suspected there will be people to answer to that are even more threatening than the cops. He also said that if he goes back, he’s afraid he’ll just get sucked into the business and have trouble finding his way out of it.
He kept the farm for us and has someone checking on it once in a while. The house his father bought him for his 29th birthday was sold and he sold his brother the condo as Dario was living there anyway.
Dario and the girls are all on the path to healing, it seems. No one talked about what happened with Tom at the end and they were all here for the wedding acting like there was nothing but love between them all. I guess the girls are all just quietly mourning him as if he were someone they loved and lost tragically. It was tragic. It was tragic how he revealed his true nature in his last days on the planet and hurt his family so deeply, cost his daughter her husband and the father of her children, put his son in a position where he had no choice but to fatally shoot him.
I get a vibe from the girls like maybe they know what really happened because they and a lot of other people saw what went down just before Tom had me taken. No one’s talking to me about any of it. The kiss Tom planted on me at his welcome home party before he abducted me was never mentioned by any of them. I could be wrong, but I get the impression they’re just burying it.