Total pages in book: 84
Estimated words: 83100 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 416(@200wpm)___ 332(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83100 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 416(@200wpm)___ 332(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
The only difference was that Rai didn’t seem like she only wanted to discover the world. Even at that age, she was set on conquering.
The part that stayed with me other than her expressive eyes was her smile. Unlike other spoiled mafia princesses, Rai was too mature for her age.
She might have been spoiled by Nikolai, but she always knew her place and strived to be more for the brotherhood.
Back then, I didn’t realize I was obsessed.
After I left Godfather and the others back in London, my aim was to stay by Nikolai’s side. Not having a place to belong to ate away at my soul, but I couldn’t stay just anywhere; I had to be where I could somehow plot my revenge. So I figured if he trusted me enough to protect his granddaughter, he would keep me around.
My plan worked, but I didn’t count on this woman getting under my skin.
The first time I noticed how much of an effect she had on me was after I left. That morning I woke up and didn’t have someone knocking on my door demanding that I teach them how to shoot or accompany them on a walk.
I went into withdrawal with its buried screams, its burning memories, and its silent breakdown.
And I remained in that fucking withdrawal for seven years. But it’s not withdrawal if it lasted that long; it’s an obsession. As soon as I returned, that obsession grabbed me by the throat like nothing ever had.
It’s different from the obsession pulsing under my skin that’s been demanding I avenge my parents’ death.
One is bloodlust with the need to hurt. The other is still some sort of lust, but it’s like a never-ending ache, the type that carved its place into the very marrow of my bones.
Stroking her hair behind her ear, I brush my lips to her forehead, lingering for a second too long so I can inhale her. Then I carefully untangle her from around me and stand up.
I slide my boxer briefs on and head to the bathroom. I hit the light switch and stand in front of the mirror.
My hands grip the marble counter as I stare at the galaxy of colors. Scarlet red, violet, bluish. That fucker Vlad made a painting out of my face—a chaotic one at that.
My eyes are swollen and the cut on my lip has dried blood all over it.
I should have probably taken care of it a bit more before I got here. Peter had a fright when he saw me. The kid shouldn’t have joined the Bratva at all.
Instead of thinking of mundane things like cleaning my face, the only thought in my mind was that I needed to see her before she completely erased me.
I have no doubt she would live a perfectly normal life without me. I’m the one who kept having withdrawals for seven fucking years.
Reaching into the cabinet, I retrieve the first aid kit so I can clean the wounds.
Vladimir, the fucker, should start picking his funeral song, because he’ll pay. Not only for hitting me, but for taking my wife away from me.
The condescending piece of shit always made it clear that I shouldn’t be with her. She’s a mafia princess and I’m a nobody, a killer who should remain in the shadows and only come out when he’s needed to take care of extracurricular activities.
He’s not wrong, but fuck him and everyone who thinks of me as a bloody shadow.
The padding of feet comes from behind me. I don’t turn around, not wanting her to know I feel her, even when she’s far away.
She already thinks I’m abnormal, and I cemented that fact by telling her about my bloody past.
I never divulged those memories to anyone except for Godfather. With her, the words tumbled out of my mouth so easily, as if I was always meant to tell her about it.
Rai stops behind me and tilts to the side so she can peek at me through the mirror.
Her brows furrow when she makes out the cotton filled with alcohol in my hand. “Does it hurt?”
“It looks worse than it is.”
She slips under my arm so she can stand between me and the counter. The only thing that covers her is a flimsy white gown that teases at her rosy areolas and hardened nipples.
Fuck me. She always looks like sin waiting to happen.
“You don’t have to be modest about it. I know Vlad’s punches hurt like hell.”
“My punch hurts worse.” My tone is flat. I’m being petty, but I don’t like that she thinks any other man is stronger than me.
“I’m sure it does.” She takes the cotton from my fingers and dabs it with some yellow liquid instead of alcohol.
Feeling the need to further prove myself, I say, “I was the best sniper in my group.”