This Woman (This Man – The Story from Jesse #1) Read Online Jodi Ellen Malpas

Categories Genre: Alpha Male, Angst, BDSM, Billionaire, Contemporary, Erotic, Romance Tags Authors: Series: This Man - The Story from Jesse Series by Jodi Ellen Malpas
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Total pages in book: 204
Estimated words: 193115 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 966(@200wpm)___ 772(@250wpm)___ 644(@300wpm)
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“I’m moving a week tomorrow. I have a few things I need to set up in the city, and Cathy wants to see the new place. I may as well stay at my rental.”

“Right,” she replies, very quietly. Suspiciously.

“I’m reachable on my phone if you need me.”

“We were supposed to go over the memberships.”

“I’m sure you’ve got it covered.” I cut the call and turn the stereo on, cocking my elbow on the window and focusing on the road as Massive Attack’s Angel fills the car and my mind wanders to unknown places. Ava—my angel—is definitely from above . . . although I know they’ll be no love on the horizon.

On Sunday at one thirty, I pull up outside the Tesco local to Cathy’s little terrace in Hampstead. I park on the double yellow lines to wait for her, tapping the wheel. I feel fresh. Awake. Alert. Fuck me, I haven’t had a drink for two days, and that is fucking monumental. I can’t even explain why. Or how I resisted. It was there, the same liquor that usually temps me back into debauchment daily, sitting bold as brass on the sideboard in my rental. I don’t think I looked at it once. Weird. Very weird. I spent hours trawling the Internet for anything I could find on Ava O’Shea. That might have kept me distracted. And the morning and evening runs. And the dozens of times I went to call her but decided against it. Because, of course, it’s the weekend and she’d have an excuse to either not take my call or answer and brush me off because she doesn’t work on weekends. Because I’m a client. At least, I am for now.

I spot Cathy emerging from the supermarket weighed down with bags. “What the heck is she playing at?” I jump out of my car and jog across the road. Her beam could split her face when she clocks me.

“Jesse, my boy.”

I claim the bags from her hands and let her smother my face. “Hey.”

She squeezes my cheeks. “You look well,” she says, taking a step back to assess me. “Really well. What’s happened?”

I cock my arm out for her to link so I can walk her back across the road. Cathy knows my story. Knows everything about me. Every dirty detail. I managed to keep her in the dark for two years, not bad, all things considered, but eight years ago it all went to shit. It was my birthday. My thirtieth. Our thirtieth. I’m surprised I didn’t kill myself with the amount of alcohol I drank that night. Poor Cathy found me in the morning. Called John, who called Sarah, who both turned up and said way too much in front of my sweet, wholesome housekeeper. I never expected to see Cathy again after that. “Nothing has happened,” I say, spotting a traffic warden taking a picture of my car on the lines. “I’ll put these in the boot.” I leave her on the pavement as I pop the boot and drop her shopping in.

“You can’t park here, sir,” the warden says, starting to tap at his device.

I roll my eyes and guide Cathy to the passenger door. “I’m helping an old lady with her shopping.”

I get a whack on my bicep for my trouble. “Less of the old, boy,” she snaps, and the warden laughs. “Give him a ticket,” she orders. “I’m perfectly capable of walking to the nearest car park, he’s just being lazy.”

I laugh under my breath and help her into the seat, hearing the warden laugh harder when she starts batting my helping hands away. “You in?”

“Yes, I’m in,” she declares, and I close the door, turning to face the warden, holding out my hand for the ticket.

He shakes his head. “Go on, before I change my mind.”

I smile and give him a friendly smack on his shoulder. “Good man.”

I land in my seat and pull off a lot slower than usual. “Listen, this new place. It’s rather large,” I tell her, not wanting Cathy to be too overwhelmed by the size of my new penthouse.

“I don’t understand it,” she muses. “There’s just you. Why do you need such a gigantic home?” She looks across to me. “Or do you have something to tell me?”

“Like what?”

“You know I live in hope that you’ll settle down, Jesse. You can’t carry on the way you do forever.”

I face the road, feeling ashamed. She’s right. I’ll end up dead. But sometimes death seems like a much better option than navigating this unknown world. Especially without Jake. “Maybe one day,” I muse, knowing deep down I’m deluded. There’s not a woman on this planet who could take me and my demons on. Or, more to the point, would want to. This chilled Jesse, the one everyone sees, the laid-back guy? He’s a shell. An act. Because acting like I’m fine is so much easier than admitting I’m fucked up. That I need help. Although I know waking up with a hangover each morning pretty much spells that out to everyone I know.


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