Total pages in book: 136
Estimated words: 128374 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 642(@200wpm)___ 513(@250wpm)___ 428(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 128374 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 642(@200wpm)___ 513(@250wpm)___ 428(@300wpm)
“We don’t really know,” he says. “This isn’t a situation my realm has ever encountered, but any Unseelie who tricked you out of that crown could take the Throne of Shadows.”
“And what if I bonded with a member of the Court of the Sun and passed it to him upon my death?”
Sebastian draws in a sharp breath and his eyes flash with hope. My Bash somehow still wants a life with me after all I’ve done. “Only one with Unseelie blood can rule from the Throne of Shadows, but all any shadow faerie would need is that crown and the throne would be theirs. I hope you understand now why I didn’t want you to come here.”
He warned me. Sebastian warned me about this world, about Finn, and I didn’t listen.
“I spent so many years being angry with my mother,” I say, tired all over again, “and I’m beginning to believe she sacrificed everything for me.” Even after sleep, my voice is raw and my throat hurts. “That’s why she left us, isn’t it? Somehow she left to protect me?”
Sebastian tucks my hair behind my ear. “After Oberon saved you and passed his crown to you, she realized very quickly that there would always be fae chasing you—looking for the crown and trying to trick you out of it.”
“Is there any way I could . . . get rid of it? If I don’t want it, could I somehow . . .”
“It is tied to your very life, and it remains a part of you until the moment of your death.” He swallows, and I remember Mordeus saying the same thing. The crown gave me life, and it is tied to my life. “Your mother did the only thing she could and sold herself to protect you. For the price of her life, she was able to hide you from them for seven years. That’s why she left you with your uncle Devlin. She believed that by the time seven years had passed, you’d be clever enough to outwit anyone who would try to steal it from you.”
“And I’ve been angry for nine years.”
“You didn’t know.” He slides his fingers through my hair, examining the ragged ends. “I can’t believe you gave that goblin all your hair.”
Self-conscious, I run my fingers through my short, wild locks. I’ve never been particularly vain, but my hair was one trait I always believed was beautiful. “I’m sure I can’t compete with those other girls now.”
He grabs my hand, stopping me, and squeezes my fingertips. “I sent the girls home.”
“What? But I thought . . .”
“For weeks I’ve been trying to convince myself I could do it. I talked with them, danced with them and . . .” He releases a breath and seems reluctant to say the rest.
“What?”
“They’re not you. They never will be you. And I’m done pretending I can live with that.”
Warmth fills me, and I lean against his chest. “Bash . . .”
“And if you’re not ready for a wedding, my mother will have to deal with it.”
My breath catches at mention of the queen. “How is she?”
“Mother? Stronger than anyone realizes. No one in the shadow court knows the book is linked to her life, so they haven’t used it against her.”
“What will happen if they figure it out?”
He slides his hands around my waist and buries his nose in my hair, taking in a deep breath. “She has the best healers in the realm. They will find a way to fortify her powers, and if they don’t . . .” He’s quiet for so long that I pull away from the heat of his chest so I can see his face. What I see there isn’t grief but thoughtfulness.
“If they don’t?” I prod.
“Mother made choices knowing their consequences.”
“But what about you? She’s still your mother.”
He releases a long breath. “I’ve had years to prepare for this. All I can do is make arrangements to take care of her kingdom as best I can.”
“You seem wiser than your years, Prince Ronan Sebastian. I imagine you’ll make an incredible king when the time comes.”
He gives me a sad smile, and I can almost see the question in his eyes—he will be king, but will I be his queen? I don’t know what’s next for me, and I’ve run out of time to deliberate. But when he opens his mouth, a different question comes out. “Do you want to go see your sister?”
I draw in a sharp breath. “Yes. Can we? Is it possible?”
“I’ll have my people prepare a portal and we’ll go to Nik’s first thing in the morning.”
I frown. “I asked Mordeus to send her to Mage Trifen’s.”
“I had to find somewhere else for her to stay,” Sebastian explains. “Mage Trifen doesn’t do charity.”
No kidding. “I’m sure Nik will make room for her until Jas can afford a place on her own.”