Total pages in book: 56
Estimated words: 50561 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 253(@200wpm)___ 202(@250wpm)___ 169(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 50561 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 253(@200wpm)___ 202(@250wpm)___ 169(@300wpm)
Sometimes, like now, I find myself just gazing at her in wonder. It sometimes seemed so farfetched that she was now mine. Did she know what she’d saved me from? She knew some of it. She was the one who’d planted the seed after all. But I don’t think she had any idea how deep her aunt’s treachery ran. I didn’t want to think of her now. I’d wasted more than enough of my time doing that.
“I don’t care, you choose.” She wrapped her coat around her and sat down in my chair looking up at me with a mixture of innocence and lust. There was also a tinge of worry in her glance and I rushed to wipe it away. “What’s on your mind sweetheart? You look worried.” It was still so foreign to care this much for someone else’s feelings. How the fuck had I planned to marry Jen when she never evoked even a fraction of this from me?
She worried her lip and looked down at her lap. “I think I’m a little wary now that the time is drawing near. I don’t want you alone with her…” She’d had the same argument ever since we’d had our little talk. She’d been so brave that night after I’d taken her that first time.
After I’d eased the pain between her legs and settled her in bed next to me, she’d finally told me what was in her heart. To say I was shocked at the shit she had to say was an understatement. Had I not come to know her so well in the short time since we’d met I would’ve brushed it off as mere jealousy on her part.
I hadn’t told her of the plans I’d been making in my head where she and I were concerned. For all she knew I was using her for sex. What that would make me in her eyes, who knows? But when she’d started talking, I’d sat up and taken notice.
I’d never stopped to ask why she’d made it so obvious that she wanted me knowing that I was seeing her aunt, but after coming to know her, learning the type of person she was, I knew that she would’ve never made a move if things weren’t as fucked up as they were. It made sense after hearing what she had to say about her aunt and I knew without question that it was true.
Now I sought to reassure her again. “I told you, you have nothing to worry about.” I ran my fingers down her soft cheek and lifted her chin so I could see into her eyes. Behind the usual fire was sadness and, jealousy. “Hey come here.” I lifted her from the chair and took her place so that I could sit her on my lap.
She needed more than a few kisses or me covering her again to reassure her I knew. For all her bravado, I’d seen the soft heart of her time and again in the last few days though she does a good job of trying to keep it hidden from me.
I pulled her head down to my chest, cradling her like the precious gem that she was until I felt the tension leave her and she relaxed back into me. “I’ve not given you the words as yet, not because I feel it’s too soon. I’m not a man to live by the dictates of others, but because when I finally tell you what you mean to me I want there to be nothing hanging over our heads to mar it. But…I have done everything in the past week to show you.”
“Yes you came into my life unexpectedly, but no matter how much I lusted for you, I would never have turned to you had there not been something more there.” It was the closest I’d come to telling her what I had grown to feel for her. I’d used my body, my mouth, even my fingers to show her through touch what was inside me, but I knew my sweet girl needed the words. After tonight, after I’d relegated her aunt to the outskirts of my life, then I would feel free to share with her, just what I envisioned.
“I’m going to make you very happy baby girl, just hold onto that no matter what or who tries to convince you otherwise. Look at me.” I turned her face to me with a finger under her chin. “Better.” That haunted look had left her eyes, but I figured I could give her more, because knowing females, especially one so young, as soon as she left me she’d be back to worrying again and I couldn’t have that.
“Do you remember the night you told me the truth about Jen, about her past marriages and what she was really like? I had no idea about any of that. I guess it was easy for her to hide that from me even in this day of modern technology because I never even thought to look. She’s very good at what she is.”