Total pages in book: 153
Estimated words: 144404 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 722(@200wpm)___ 578(@250wpm)___ 481(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 144404 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 722(@200wpm)___ 578(@250wpm)___ 481(@300wpm)
My lonely, desperate body.
I couldn’t help but remember exactly how good it felt to feed the vampire, the way his fangs would plunge in, and what should have been pain was the most exquisite pleasure.
“I told you I don’t want this,” I replied through the hitch in my breath as I felt a fang drag across my skin, threatening to break the surface, to well with blood that would fill his mouth and make him want to eat me alive.
He stopped and took a long breath in. “Then why is your pussy already wet, baby?”
Stupid vampires and their stupid heightened senses.
“Tell me again.” His body pressed mine against the wall, and I could feel his cock against my belly. “Tell me you don’t want me and I’ll walk away.”
He would, and I would be the one squirming and wishing I hadn’t told him to go.
How could I possibly manipulate him sexually if we weren’t having sex?
Why on all of the planes was I acting like some mewling prude who didn’t want a vampire to go down on me? Because I did. Vampires are really good with oral. I mean it. They are spectacular. And patient. They can tongue fuck a woman for hours and never get bored or talk about their lower backs seizing.
I was Olivia Carey, leader of the unholy trinity. I was Profane.
Why had I been playing this virginal role when I should have been fucking for twelve years?
I tilted my head up and realized Lucifer was right. I was delusional.
I didn’t want any vampire. I wanted him.
“Are you going to make me say it?” Pride wouldn’t let me say yes, and in that moment I wasn’t delusional enough to pretend this was about manipulating him. I would go back to that later. For now all that mattered was he was close, and I could feel how hungry he was.
He stared down at me for a moment, his eyes already a deep sapphire. When he got aroused that pure vampire part of his soul came out, along with his fangs and those gorgeous alien eyes that dragged a person in. He could use persuasion on me, but he didn’t. I wished he had because then I wouldn’t feel conflicted. Then I wouldn’t have to make the choice to press my chest against his and offer up my lips.
He answered me by kissing me, his mouth covering mine and letting me close off the rest of the world. I could pretend I didn’t have a choice. Hell, before we’d been on opposite sides of this war, that had been a fantasy of mine. The vampire who couldn’t control himself around me. Not that any woman really wants that. It was a harmless fantasy that my intensely in-control vampire excelled at.
He kissed me like he was dying of thirst and I was his favorite drink. His tongue surged in, and I realized how cold I’d been. He’d accused me of learning to close myself off, and I had to admit that he was right. I had shut down whole parts of my personality. I’d had to in order to survive.
Casey’s kiss reminded me how much I needed arms around me, needed physical affection. It was more than pleasure. It was the reminder that I wasn’t alone, that there was someone who cared if I was cold at night or couldn’t sleep. It reminded me that I was more than a power source for someone else’s spells.
I was…
He…
I pushed back, panic threatening to overcome me. “Stop.”
He stepped back, his fangs out, but I wasn’t afraid of him.
Shouldn’t I be afraid of him? He could rip me apart in every way. He was the enemy. He wanted to kill my master and send us all back to the past.
“Baby, are you okay? I’m sorry. I moved too fast. Come on. No more pushing you,” he promised.
I was ready to run, to get away from him. I would go and sulk in my room.
“Come and let’s find whatever passes for the Internet here,” he said, taking a deep breath and forcing his fangs back. “We can find Kelsey and talk to her about Lilith.”
I could run but I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to brush against those awful thoughts, but I also didn’t want to leave him. There was something soothing about being close to him, something that felt real and familiar.
I wasn’t ready to face the revelations that simmered under my surface, but I also wasn’t ready to be alone again.
When he started out of the lab, I followed him.
Chapter Eleven
Kelsey
I walked to the end of the gardens, looking out over the tree line I’d been told was the barrier between the mansion and the woods that surrounded the place. There were mountains in the distance, clouds hanging low over it. The clouds were dark, an inverse of the ones on the Earth plane.