Total pages in book: 130
Estimated words: 125694 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 628(@200wpm)___ 503(@250wpm)___ 419(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 125694 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 628(@200wpm)___ 503(@250wpm)___ 419(@300wpm)
He pushes his thumbs toward my knee to help the circulation. The once sharp pain becomes mild now. I feel the muscles unknotting under his fingers.
“Better?” Locken asks.
I nod again. Swallow. Stare at his fingers. At his wedding ring. At the way his hands curl and massage the back of my knee now, the sensitive spot, and I giggle and squirm despite myself.
“Your muscles are really tight.” His frown deepens. That damn wedding ring feels like fire every time it touches my skin. Why does it have to be there? He could’ve waited until I graduated—what’s four years in comparison to a lifetime—and we could be together.
“You need to work on your stretches, Penrose. Your muscles are shortening. Probably genetic.”
“Probably from my mom’s side,” I agree. Count on Mom to pass down short muscles to me.
His fingers hike up to my thigh. Now it doesn’t feel all that innocent anymore. My body tingles. But there’s also something else. A ball of anxiety in my throat.
“Y-yeah,” I stammer, filling the silence, which has now become uncomfortable. “I should stretch more. I’ll add it to my nightly routine.”
“It’s important.”
My leg feels loose and pliant under his touch. I don’t even mind that he can see I haven’t shaved.
“God, this is so good.” I throw my head back and groan.
He chuckles. “You’re lucky you’re so talented, Penrose. Not everyone gets special treatment.”
But is it my talent that makes him do this for me?
His index finger flicks the edge of my track shorts once, close to my groin. I’m about to jerk back, but he pulls away completely, standing up. His smile is shy but calm. He looks me straight in the eye.
“All better?”
Flustered, I grab the ice pack next to me and dart up. “All better.”
“Let me know if you need help again. Anytime. Sometimes diamonds need a little rub to shine.”
The same day, I raid my dad’s bathroom, find a razor, and shave my legs all the way up to my groin area.
I would go to him to massage my knee—my thigh—for the next two months.
Telling myself it’s all for the scholarship.
I met Aisling, Sailor, and Persy at Boston Common the following day.
All three young mothers arrived with their strollers, babies, and two cents to weigh in on my situation.
They were a reminder that soon I was going to have to transport myself from a world of thongs and nightclubs to the wonders of bamboo breast pads, burp cloths, and swaddles.
My friends’ strollers matched their personalities.
Sailor pushed a city jogger. Sporty, efficient, and all black. “A customer favorite,” she boasted to me once when I was in a great mood and pretended to care.
Persephone had the double Bugaboo for both Astor and Quinn, off-white and trimmed, although she strapped Astor to a dog-like leash and let him roam the park like a drunken Chihuahua.
Then there was Aisling, who had the silver cross Balmoral stroller. It looked classy, expensive, prim and proper—just like the woman it belonged to. Ambrose looked right at home inside it.
We were all bundled up in our coats, striding through the tree-lined common, passing by the Freedom Trail and the soldiers’ and sailors’ monuments.
The sky was a curtain of ice, clouds moving across in navy blue like the morning throng of downtown professionals.
“Did you know that in the seventeenth century, a woman named Ann Hibbins was executed in the Boston Common on charges of witchcraft?” Sailor asked as she pushed the stroller with Xander. “They hanged her for all to see.”
“Christ, Sailor.” Aisling did a sign of the cross, side-eyeing our friend. “What a fun-fact to start the day with.”
Persy laughed. A stab of melancholy pierced through me. Devon would have appreciated that jab. But I couldn’t just text him willy-nilly. We weren’t supposed to talk about non-baby related stuff. My rule, which I stood behind. It just sucked.
“Anyway!” Persephone exclaimed. “As much as I’d love to hear about women being hung for witchcraft, Belle has something to tell us.”
“Thanks for the subtle transition, Sis.”
Since I was the only one who didn’t have a stroller to push, I held Rooney, Sailor’s toddler daughter, on one of those leashes while she tried chasing pigeons off the paved walkway. She looked like a tiny drunk man trying to pick a fight. I was here for it.
“It’s still early, but I wanted to let you know that there’s a bun in this oven.” I pointed at my stomach.
The girls stopped pushing their strollers and jumped on me with hugs and squeals of delight. Rooney and Astor, who had no idea what was going on but sensed the excitement, pushed between our legs and hugged me too, squealing, “Auntie Belle! Auntie Belle!”
I gathered everyone into my arms and laughed, a little embarrassed. I was going to tell my parents on the phone later this evening. They weren’t going to be super happy about my having a child out of wedlock, but I knew they’d come to expect nothing better from me. They knew I wasn’t the marrying kind. They had no illusions about me following in my younger sister’s footsteps.