The Perfects Read Online Rachel Van Dyken

Categories Genre: Angst, Contemporary, Forbidden, New Adult, Young Adult Tags Authors:
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Total pages in book: 79
Estimated words: 79183 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 396(@200wpm)___ 317(@250wpm)___ 264(@300wpm)
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After all, aren’t the last three people who tried to love me dead?

It’s better this way. There is no actual logic to my choice other than I can’t see any other option.

But sometimes, life isn’t logical. Sometimes things just happen, but when you see a pattern, the only way to change it is to change yourself.

I go into Ambrose’s room and grab a piece of paper and one of his black markers. I almost smile at how impeccable his room is for a high school boy; he even made his bed.

So perfect, isn’t he?

I draw a black heart and then sign it: Love, MB. I’m sorry for everything.

I leave it on his bed and then walk into my room. I leave the makeup. I leave the fancy clothes and purse. I gather what I came with—just that.

And I put it all in a fancy new trash bag, then take the money his mom had given me.

The credit cards, purse, and keys go on the kitchen table.

Old habits die hard, so I grab a few protein bars and a bottle of water.

And I take one last look at the perfect house, with the perfect people and perfect lives.

What is perfect anyway?

Was it this?

Is it him?

Me?

Is there even a definition?

Life is messy, dirty, and beautiful, like a tidal wave of sorrow followed by someone telling you to fight to survive until the sunrise.

I’ve yet to fully see mine.

But one day, one day, I’ll find it.

After all, the story isn’t over until the end, right?

I nod to myself and open the front door, shut it, and start to walk again.

I let it go.

I let him go.

And I’ve never felt more broken.

Chapter Forty

Ambrose

“Why isn’t she back yet?” I ask Quinn.

Quinn looks down at his hands. We’ve been waiting an hour, and I’ve cried most of it. I have a funeral, another one to plan, and I’m worried sick about MB.

“Did Tessa make it?” I finally gain the courage to ask.

Quinn nods. “She’s a couple rooms over, most likely going to get arrested for reckless driving and possession.”

I nod. “At least that explains her erratic behavior.”

My throat’s scratchy from trying to hold back tears, and I’m sick of seeing detectives come in and out of my room asking me the same questions over and over again, not to mention the fact that I’m most likely front-page news right now.

My mom came back to me.

Only to leave for good.

I’m bitter, sad, and thankful, and then I go back to being bitter again. I loved my mom. She loved me in her own way, and in the end, she gave me the perfect gift.

Funny how a month ago, I wanted to sit outside and have my freedom thinking that my life was so bad.

And now I’m an orphan.

Alone.

Money doesn’t do shit. I’ll inherit millions of dollars, but what does that do when you’re alone in your giant home at night? It doesn’t keep you warm.

It makes you a target.

So you isolate and isolate some more—self-preservation and all that. I just… I can’t imagine it, and I can’t wrap my head around it, nor do I want to.

I just want MB. I want her to tell me we’ll figure it out like she did when mom left.

I want her to tell me it’s okay to cry and that cuddling on the couch during Pirates of the Caribbean is a totally normal way to deal with trauma.

I want her.

And she’s not here.

“Maybe check your find your friend app?” Quinn suggests. “I’m not a creeper like you, so I never added her, but I’m sure you probably have seventeen trackers in her bag.”

I smile despite still feeling wet tears on my face. “Is this your way of trying to cheer me up? Being a dick?”

“Is it helping?” he asks.

“A little.” I sigh. “And she turned off location services.”

He frowns. “Did you try texting?”

I show him my phone. “I’ve sent a few. I just thought she was giving me a minute, but now I’m worried, and she’s all—“ I choke up. “All I have is her and you, but you’re being a dick, so I really need to find my forever right now.”

His face falls. “I’ll find her.”

“How? Magic?”

“Money.” He shrugs. “Same thing.”

I almost laugh. “Okay, Tony Stark.”

“Avengers assemble.” He winks. “Will you be okay by yourself for a few minutes?”

“Are you asking me if I’m going to slit my wrists?”

He sobers. “I’m being serious.”

The elephant in the room is literally holding a sign that says. “You know because you lost your dad and mom so close together and nearly died from a psycho ex-girlfriend who raped you as a freshman, but yeah sure, how’s your day going?”

We’re both quiet, except for the hum of the machines around us and the smell of antiseptic, medicine, and bleach.

I look up at him, really look at him, and I can’t take it anymore. It’s like the world shatters around me, and all I can see is him.


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