Total pages in book: 84
Estimated words: 80635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 403(@200wpm)___ 323(@250wpm)___ 269(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 80635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 403(@200wpm)___ 323(@250wpm)___ 269(@300wpm)
“I spent most of the day sitting outside my old house like a stalker. I didn’t know where to go. I kept thinking about the little boy who lived there, who got shuffled to a few other homes but was always brought back there with the people who pretended to want him but didn’t.”
Jesus, hearing that broke my heart. No one should have to live that way, and I hated that Declan had. “You don’t have to be that little boy anymore. I mean, I get that you know that, and you have Parker, Corbin, and Marcus, but—”
“I have you.” He brushed his thumb over the pulse in my wrist as we stood beside my bed. “You know how important you are to me, right? They’re my family, and I want you to be my future.”
His words hit me straight in the chest and made my knees go weak. “I don’t know if that’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever heard or the sexiest.”
“Both. I wanna be both.”
“Deal.”
He motioned toward the bed, and I followed him, the two of us lying down, shoes on and everything.
“I can’t say how good I’ll be at this—the people thing, the publicity.”
“I know. It won’t always be this crazy. It’ll die down, but I can’t make any promises. I know it’s a lot to ask someone to deal with, and I still don’t know what my future holds—if I want to keep acting or not. I just know I love you. I don’t want this to end, and I’ll do everything in my power to make the sacrifices worth it.”
Declan frowned. “I have you, Bastian. That alone makes it worth it.”
Oh…well, when he said it like that… “I lied. That might be the sweetest and sexiest thing I’ve ever heard.”
“Damn, I’m on a roll.” The right side of his mouth kicked up in a grin, and I kissed it.
“I’m sorry you had to go through this today, that it was your dad who hurt you, and now you have people prying into your past and—”
“Shh.” He pressed his finger to my lips. “It’s not your fault. I’ll just become a recluse if I need to and live off my rich boyfriend,” he teased, and I rolled my eyes. Declan sobered. “Just don’t leave me.”
“I won’t. Not ever.”
“My dad did this, and the things he said… It’s your reputation we need to worry about, not mine. I—”
“Shh.” This time it was me pressing my finger to his lips. “If it’s not my fault, it’s not yours either.”
“You’re worth it, Sebastian. I know you blamed yourself in some ways, after Neil, but that was his loss. You’re worth fighting for. You deserve the whole damn world.”
Our mouths pulled together with a force that felt like neither of us could stop. He kissed me hungrily before we began stripping off each other’s clothes, laughing when his jeans got caught on his shoes.
“I want you to fuck me,” Declan gritted out, his voice rough and needy. “I need you deep, want you stretching me out, making my hole yours the way you already have the rest of me.”
I damn near melted into a puddle, hearing him say that to me. “Yes. Fuck yes. You’re mine.”
I straddled Declan, who lay on his back. “Come here,” he said, and I went, pushing up on my knees and leaning forward so he could suck my cock. “Feed it to me.”
My balls throbbed to release right then, all over his face. “You want this?” I held the base of my dick.
“You know I do. Do you want to hear me say it? I want to suck you off.”
Fuck, I loved it when he talked to me like that. I fed Declan my erection, and he licked the tip, took it easily when I pushed inside. After pulling back, I thrust forward again, fucking into his mouth, while he looked up at me like he couldn’t believe he was there with me. I would never understand how this man didn’t realize that there was no one as good as him, that I would do anything for him, and how fucking perfect he was. I would spend the rest of my life making sure I told him.
My balls slapped against his chin, which was maybe one of the hottest things I’d ever seen. He didn’t break eye contact and…and in that moment, I wanted more than this.
I pulled back. Declan looked surprised, until I cupped his face, then ran my hand through his hair. “You’re so beautiful, Dec. I thought it the first time I saw you and every single time I saw you or thought about you after that.”
“I…” he started, and then, “Thank you.”
I smiled, and he tugged me down, kissing me with his very own grin.
We rolled around together, touching and laughing, tasting and teasing. When I couldn’t handle it anymore, I grabbed the lube and a condom and slicked my fingers to open him up.