Total pages in book: 77
Estimated words: 72647 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 363(@200wpm)___ 291(@250wpm)___ 242(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 72647 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 363(@200wpm)___ 291(@250wpm)___ 242(@300wpm)
“That’s not what my da says. Or my brother.” She’d gotten a hearty lecture from her brother and pleading from her da not to kill herself, thereby destroying his soul or something.
“Your father has issues when it comes to you. He was raised with a brother. His mother was significantly tougher than you or your mother. I mean that in a physical sense,” Carys said. “You’re tough and so is your mom, but what your da sees is his sweet girl getting eaten up by the world.”
“So I don’t ever get eaten up by anyone at all?” She sniffled, feeling sorry for herself. It wasn’t her usual mood, which was probably why it hit her so hard.
“Ah, I do see where the two are connected. You haven’t found the right guy yet,” Carys said with a sigh. “I know it’s easy for me to say. I found the right ones… I found your brother when I was very young. You have to give it some time.”
Daisy turned so she could look Carys in the eyes. “I’m not looking for the right one. I’m looking for anyone at this point. I want to ask you a question, and I need you to be honest. Is there something wrong with me?”
A brow rose over Carys’s eyes. “Why would you say that?”
“Because this is literally a sex club, and I can’t get laid.” It was the saddest part of her world. She had great friends, a wonderful family, a wide-open world career wise. Mostly. But on the romantic front she couldn’t seem to find a groove. She wasn’t looking for anything serious. Not right now. She wanted to play, and no one would play with her here. It was hard watching other subs get picked night after night while she sat in the lounge.
She’d taken all the classes, but even her training Dom had treated her like a kid sister. While her classmates were indulging in discovering the pleasures of D/s, she’d get lectures about how dangerous the world could be.
She’d thought it would change when she graduated, but it was more of the same. Even the new guys—the ones she hadn’t grown up with—avoided her.
Carys seemed to think for a moment. “The problem might be that you already know everyone here. We’re bringing in new members next month. People you didn’t grow up with.”
“I didn’t grow up with the guys from The Club,” Daisy pointed out. The Hideout had been started by the group of friends they were supposed to pretend didn’t work for the Central Intelligence Agency, and Julian Lodge’s kids. The Lodge gang had brought in a group of their friends, and Daisy liked them all.
Not a one of them would play with her.
It made a girl think.
Carys frowned. “None of this seems right. I’m sorry. I’ve been caught up in my own drama and I haven’t been checking in with the people who are important to me. I know how my brother and cousins view you.”
Daisy did, too. “As a kid sister.”
Carys nodded. “Sorry, they can’t help it. But the others shouldn’t. Are you telling me you haven’t had a single D/s encounter since you became a member here?”
“I had a couple of scenes in the beginning, but I know Aidan asked the Doms to run them with me. They didn’t have any interest in me physically.” It bugged her and quite frankly brought down her body positivity. “It’s weird because I ran through some dick in college, if you know what I mean. I’m so not a virgin. Despite what my da thinks. But I suspect I would like it even more if it was D/s sex.”
Carys’s head shook. “Seriously? You haven’t had sex in the club? I thought everyone had sex in the club.”
“Brianna doesn’t because she never took the class. Devi doesn’t because she’s pining after someone.” That wasn’t her story to tell. “Do you think it’s because my best friends are all sexless and stuff? Does everyone see me and think I don’t want sex? I mean, I’m not terrible to look at.”
“You’re freaking gorgeous, Dais,” Carys said and seemed genuinely stumped at her predicament. “You are what the older generation would call a bombshell. I need to think about this. It might be time to look for another club for you. Sanctum runs a bit older, but they have new people coming in. Some of the new staff at Top are taking the training class right now. And one of the bodyguards at MT. I only know him because his dad has run Top Fort Worth for years. I don’t think you’ve met Landon Vail yet. He’s cute. Is this why you hide out in the locker room?”
“It feels better than sitting in the lounge knowing everyone is looking at me and wondering why I bother.” It was better than sitting home alone, and at least then she had her friends around her. Devi and Bri weren’t here tonight, so it would be super lonely all the way around. Everyone would be out partying and exploring, and she would be watching crap videos on her tablet waiting for her brother to be done.