Total pages in book: 106
Estimated words: 103852 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 519(@200wpm)___ 415(@250wpm)___ 346(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 103852 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 519(@200wpm)___ 415(@250wpm)___ 346(@300wpm)
“Security hazard. No.”
My heart plummets, but I keep my compliant tone as I implore, “I’ll be careful.”
“It doesn’t matter how careful you are. If someone wants to get to me, they’d do it through you since you’re the easiest and weakest spot they can hit. Being my wife has already set you as a target, Lia.”
His words slice me open, cutting me in half. I thought he would never hurt me worse than the day in Sergei’s office, but he just dug the rusty knife in deeper.
So I’m his weakest spot now.
My lips tremble, but I set them in a line, even as what remains of my heart bleeds. “I need to do some activities or I’ll lose it. Your precious baby won’t be able to be born if his mother is fucking nuts.”
“Lower your voice.” His jaw clenches. “And did you hear a word I said about security?”
“I did. Don’t care. I need to get out, Adrian. You already clipped my wings. The least you can do is give me something to look forward to.”
He clutches me by the chin and I swallow as his merciless eyes clash with mine. “Raise your voice again and I’ll put you on my lap and spank that defiance out of you. Is that clear, Lenochka?”
“Give me something,” I murmur, tears welling along my lids. “Please.”
I wish they were fake tears, that I was just feigning this, but real pain bursts through and my heart and pride ache for ever letting him see me this way.
For letting him hurt me again by calling me his weakness.
“You will go out with my guards. Only once a week and to a location I specify.”
My lips part. “Really?”
“Have I lied to you before?”
No. He makes sure all of his promises are executed—whether good or bad.
Actually…
He did when he didn’t tell me about his engagement to perfect Kristina. A lie by omission is still a lie, and I’m still not over that. But if I say that, he’ll just twist it around, and I’m not in the mood to acknowledge his previous engagement—I don’t think I ever will be. I hate the inferiority complex that festers on my soul whenever I think of the pretty blonde on his arm instead of me.
“I’ll let you know which location you’ll go to.”
“I…” I swallow. “I want to do charity work.”
He raises a brow. “What?”
“You know, those organizations that serve homeless people food?”
“I know what charity work means, Lia. And you’re not doing it.”
I place a hand on his chest, my palm expanding on the hard ridges underneath. This is the first time I’ve initiated an affectionate touch first.
A low growl slips from his lips and his muscles ripple beneath my small hand, then he looks at me as if he wants to devour me.
I bask in the sensation of having this much effect on him. It might only be physical, but it’s still empowering all the same.
“I need to have a purpose after my accident, Adrian. And if I’m fighting a noble cause, I won’t feel like my days and nights are empty.”
He raises a brow. “Your nights are empty?”
My cheeks heat, recalling a recent memory of him tying me up to fuck me until I was spent. “You know what I mean.”
“No, I don’t. So why don’t you explain it to me?”
I sigh, opting to offer him a small fraction of truth even I don’t want to admit, but I know he’ll like. “After we finish having sex, I know I’ll spend the following day alone, and sometimes, I think about that all night long. That’s what I meant by empty nights.”
He pauses, and I believe he’ll shoot me down, but then he nods. “Fine. But I choose which organization.”
I smile, feeling the triumph of the win to my bones.
This is it. My chance to escape.
For a life as far away from Adrian as possible.
29
Lia
I get a sliver of freedom the following month.
It’s not much.
But Adrian keeps his word and allows me to be part of a shelter that serves homeless people warm food during the harsh days. We’re slowly heading to spring, but the air is still cold.
I look forward to the days I can get out without Adrian. Yan and Boris accompany me, but they mostly keep to themselves in the background.
When it’s just Yan and me, we share sandwiches for lunch and then I try to probe him about his boss, questions that he doesn’t answer. I should be used to it by now, but I’d rather talk to Yan than not talk at all.
It’s sad, but he’s basically the only friend I have. The other day, my feet came to a halt in front of a Giselle poster. The ballet is still being directed by Philippe and choreographed by Stephanie. Nothing has changed except for the prima ballerina, who’s now Hannah Max. Oh, and they changed Ryan for another dancer. No clue if he pulled out, and I have no will to get in touch with that part of my life anymore.