Total pages in book: 106
Estimated words: 103852 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 519(@200wpm)___ 415(@250wpm)___ 346(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 103852 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 519(@200wpm)___ 415(@250wpm)___ 346(@300wpm)
Everyone scatters to warm up, their professional faces on display. Ryan stands beside me as he stretches his long legs. “Another love affair between you and me. Don’t you think it’s fate?”
I keep my attention ahead as I slowly do a plié. My ankles haven’t been throbbing as badly as that night, but I still feel that cramp lurking in my tendon, waiting to rip it.
“I thought your fate was with Hannah, Ryan.”
“Do I hear jealousy, my dear Lia?”
This time, I stare at him. “That’s the difference between you and me, Ryan. You hear jealousy. I hear, leave me alone.”
I don’t wait for him to reply and walk to Stephanie so I can ask her about a part of the choreography. Her posture is refined and elegant, still having the grace of a queen despite being in her early fifties.
She sends one of the staff away when I approach her and folds her frail arms across her chest. “Tell me.”
“Do you have the finalized choreography for the last part of act one?”
“Why are you asking?” Her voice is deep due to the number of cigarettes she smokes on a daily basis.
“I was watching the performances of—”
She cuts me off with a finger. “Didn’t I say not to watch other performances? Are you a copycat, Lia?”
“No. I watch them so I can get inspired before I put my own spin on it.”
“Why? Are you stuck somewhere?”
“A little.”
“Which part?”
“At the end of act one, right before Giselle dies, how do I convey the emotions without being melodramatic?”
“First of all, you need to stop addressing Giselle in third person. She’s you now. If you don’t live inside her, she won’t live inside you.” She places a hand on my chest. “If you don’t allow her to consume your heart and soul, you’ll only go down in history as another ballerina who portrayed Giselle well enough.”
Stephanie’s words hit harder than I expect them to. I’m vaguely aware of my surroundings when the door to the theater opens and the producers waltz inside, accompanied by their associates. They often watch us rehearse, even though Philippe dislikes it with a passion.
“Just know this.” Stephanie takes my hand in hers. “In order to be Giselle, you have to be a whole ballerina and a whole person. No one denies you’re a whole ballerina with perfect technique and elegance that’s spoken about in all the ballet circuits, but are you a whole person, Lia?”
She releases me and summons the staff over, unaware of the shackle she just snapped around my ankle.
My insecurities bubble to the surface, attempting to suffocate me and pull me under.
Turning around, I stuff all those emotions to the bottom of my gut. Luca once said that I have to face my past to live on, but I declined, stubbornly burying that black hole and its dark box and going on with my life. I’ve been doing great and I will continue to do so, no matter what he or Stephanie says about it.
After the warm-up, we go through the opening scene. I don’t stop moving or take any breaks. I feel like if I do, my ankle will act up. I need to see Dr. Kim about it. He’s been taking care of my legs since I had enough money to hire him as my attending physician. He’s the best orthopedist around, and as someone whose daughter wants to become a ballerina, he understands how much we fuss about the slightest pain in our ankles. But I’m sure he’ll shoo me away with some muscle ointment, as usual.
When it’s time for my entrance, I step into Giselle’s shoes. I’m the timid maid who loves to dance with no care for the world. I leap, then twirl, letting the symphonic music flow through my veins.
Since it’s a somewhat solo scene, I’m pulled from my surroundings and living in my head, a poor maid who has nothing on her mind but dancing. Not knowing that in her innocence, she’s attracting a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
That’s when I sense it. I’m about to jump when a sharp presence wrenches me from the confines of my fragile Giselle.
For the first time during a rehearsal, I stare at the audience. The producers are there, animatedly chatting among each other.
One isn’t a producer, though.
Far from it.
His dark gray eyes lock with mine and I lose my footing. But I save it at the last second, landing on my feet instead of on pointe as per the choreography.
He’s here.
The stranger has come back.
4
Lia
I cease breathing.
I blink once, twice, desperately trying to chalk this up to another play of my imagination, a manifestation of my demons and hallucinations.
Maybe I’ve exhausted my mind so much that it’s started to fabricate things.
Raising a shaky hand to my wrist, I sink my nails into it. Pain explodes on my tender skin and my mouth parts.