Teach Me Dirty Read Online Jade West

Categories Genre: BDSM, Erotic, Romance, Taboo, Virgin Tags Authors:
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Total pages in book: 140
Estimated words: 137588 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 688(@200wpm)___ 550(@250wpm)___ 459(@300wpm)
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His home.

I wished it felt better. I wished it wasn’t under duress.

He was angry, I could tell. That felt worst of all.

I heard him sigh, and he turned the heater up full. It felt nice against my freezing legs.

“You could have caught your death out there.”

I shrugged. “I was upset.”

We turned up towards Deerton Heath and my tummy tickled with nerves. The road climbed, steeply, and turned bumpy, and there were no streetlights, no lights at all.

“Not far now,” he said and I hugged myself to steady my thumping heart. I couldn’t believe this was happening. Whisked away in the night to his home.

The track evened out, and twinkling lights came into view in the distance. He pulled up, and switched off the engine.

“This is us.”

Us.

If only.

I unclipped my seatbelt and let myself out, and he was already at the doorway, leading the way inside. The door was old, heavy and smooth, and the hallway beyond was old, too. You could tell by the walls, uneven and beamed and full of age. He flicked on the light, and I looked through to a dining room. It was cluttered, but artistically so, the table laden with canvases and palettes, and the walls were covered in prints and paintings, a faded terracotta colour peeping out through the gaps. I took off my heels and followed him through to the kitchen, another artistically cluttered affair, with jugs and jars and heavy pans, and a couple of strange looking houseplants. He ran the tap awhile before filling up a glass.

He handed it over.

“Drink.”

“Lizzie already made me…”

“I don’t care,” he said. “Drink.”

I propped myself against the side and forced some down, but I was still shaking, still cold. Still nervous.

I felt his eyes on me. “Heating is on.”

“Thanks.”

He brushed past me and took a door to the side, and I peered in after him. He was crouched on the floor by a fireplace, fumbling with some kindling. He set it alight, and my heart leapt, an unexpected moment of joy. My first in weeks. I love a real fire.

“Come through,” he said, and he was at the sofa — an old battered leather thing that had seen better days — making me a space amongst a load of art magazines. I sat down and pulled my legs up under me, and Mr Roberts fetched a soft woollen throw from a stool in the corner and draped it over my legs. “The fire will start kicking out some heat soon.”

“Thank you, I’m a bit warmer now.”

He sat on the arm at the opposite end, and watched the flames in the grate as they danced and crackled and sprang into life. “I wanted the best for you, Helen. That’s all I wanted.”

I didn’t know what to say, so I said nothing.

“This whole thing… it was wrong. I knew it was wrong. I thought if I could just back away, just give you enough space…” He sighed. “It didn’t really go to plan, though, did it?”

“I… I just…” I slumped down in my seat. “I just wanted it so bad. It broke my heart.”

“Seeing you with Harry Sawbridge…” His brows were heavy, concentrated. “Helen, you’re better than that.”

“I didn’t feel it.” My heart hurt. “I don’t feel it. I feel like nothing. I just wanted it done.”

“Don’t say that.”

“It’s true. I feel like nothing. Just a stupid little girl. A weirdo. A stupid virgin.”

“Shh,” he said. “Don’t.”

“Why not? It’s the truth.”

He moved so slowly. Dropping to the floor and closing the distance on his knees, and he was there, in front of me, warm hands on my knees through the throw. “That isn’t the truth.”

“You would say that. You have to say that. You’re my teacher.”

“I’m hardly acting like it.”

“You are.” And I was sad again. “You are acting like it.”

“I’ve been trying.”

I managed a small smile. “You’re not doing so bad.”

“That’s debatable.”

“You didn’t have to pick me up,” I said. “You should have left me there.”

“Yes,” he said. “I should have. I’m too drunk to drive.”

“You don’t seem it.”

“That doesn’t matter. I’m still too drunk to drive.” His eyes were on mine, and they burned. “Anna was killed by a drunk driver. He was three times the limit, lost control on a bend and she was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Just one split second of bad timing. If he hadn’t been drinking, if his reactions had been better…” He looked away. “I don’t drink and drive, Helen. I never drink and drive.”

My soul shrivelled. “And I made you? I made you do it, didn’t I? Oh my God …”

“You didn’t make me. Your irresponsible choices made me. Please don’t make a habit of it.”

I was crying again, and it was stupid but I couldn’t stop. “I’m so sorry…”

“Don’t be sorry, Helen, just learn from it.” He squeezed my knee through the throw. “You didn’t know.”


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