Total pages in book: 138
Estimated words: 128260 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 641(@200wpm)___ 513(@250wpm)___ 428(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 128260 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 641(@200wpm)___ 513(@250wpm)___ 428(@300wpm)
I wanted her to be proud of me. I wanted her to see how I loved and worshipped her mother and want nothing less than that for herself one day. To be loved completely, body, heart, and soul. To be understood. To be known.
Someday, I would have to have a very difficult conversation with her about the choices I had made before I knew better. I cringed with the thought, but the fact of the matter was, the internet is forever, and it would be better that she hear it from me.
I thought about who I was when I first met Grace, all the ways in which I defined myself back then. Sometimes, you don’t even realize anything is wrong until someone comes along and changes you and makes you want more. In my case, it was a beautiful girl with a plan who shattered the world I thought I knew. And when I put the pieces back together, they were all rearranged, different—and so was I. Until her, I had never even considered the possibilities.
In life, there are those who save us, both in big ways and in small. Sometimes that means being set free from a dark, windowless room or being pulled out of a burning building. More often, it means being saved from yourself and made to finally believe that letting someone love you isn’t just a big lie that you’re unwilling to tell.
Grace had saved me by calling my bluff and then listening to the secrets I believed made me unlovable, with acceptance in her eyes. The gift she gave me was her glow—and it shined for me so brightly that my own darkness disappeared.
I kissed our daughter again, now sleeping peacefully on my chest, lost in her own world of dreams, safe and loved in my arms.