Total pages in book: 101
Estimated words: 93453 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 467(@200wpm)___ 374(@250wpm)___ 312(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 93453 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 467(@200wpm)___ 374(@250wpm)___ 312(@300wpm)
“I’m living,” I assure her as she sniffles back the tears running down her face. My father lifts his hand to wipe them away. “I promise, Mom, I’m fine.” She turns to look at me. “I’m better than I think I ever was.”
“I know,” she responds softly. “I can see it. I can feel it.” The smile on her face is soft as my father puts an arm around her neck and pulls her to him, kissing her on the top of her head. My mother didn’t have the best childhood and was left for dead by her mother’s husband, who was using her to steal people’s identities. My mother is a computer wiz, so she sometimes works with my grandfather. She’s the only one who can crack his firewall, and she’s happy to do it each and every time. “We want you to be happy,” she says. “The only thing a parent can wish for is that their child is healthy and happy.”
“I’m getting there, Mom,” I admit to her. “I might have been lost along the way, but I’m getting back.” I’m not lying either, not like I used to do back then. Saying the words just to say them so she wouldn’t worry. But she saw right through me, they all did. The only one I was fooling was myself.
“Okay.” She wraps her arms around my father’s waist. “We’re here if you need us.”
“Don’t wait up,” I say, pushing off and heading toward the forest. When I look over my shoulder at my house, I see they aren’t there watching me. I make my way toward the cemetery, stopping at her grave site. “Hey,” I say, getting down in a squat, “I know I haven’t been here in a while.” I don’t know why, but I smile. “Not sure if you noticed or not. Or if you saw anything. I still miss you, but it’s a different feeling now.” My eyes are on her name like I expect her to say something to me, but the only thing in the night is the sound of crickets. I don’t know how long I sit here; it could have been five minutes or it could have been an hour. But for the first time, leaving her is not with a feeling of dread. It’s with a lightness as if the pressure on my chest has been taken off. “I’ll come and visit again soon.” I stand and put my hand on the cold gray marble. “I might even bring her with me.” I smile and turn to walk toward her house.
I walk out of the clearing toward her house at the same time I see her walking out of the back door. She’s out of her jeans and in another pair of shorts, but this time, they are tight and mold to her body. The tank top stops just under her tits, showing off some of her stomach, making my mouth water. She sits on the swing and pushes off, looking out, and I know when she sees me because her foot stops moving. “What are you doing here?” she asks as I take a step up.
“I told you I was coming here,” I remind her as I walk up the steps and sit beside her on the swing, leaning sideways to kiss her neck. “Did you think I was lying?”
“Well…” she starts, unsure of what to say, “I thought that maybe with your parents here.”
My hand finds hers on her leg as I pull her into me. Wrapping my arm around her waist, I pick her up. She gasps in shock as I place her on my lap to straddle me. My arms wrap around her waist, and I pull her to me. She’s stiff for a couple of seconds before she melts into my chest and wraps her arms around my neck. Her head rests on my shoulder as her lips touch the side of my neck. “I missed you,” I admit. “You don’t have to say anything. I just wanted you to know.” I feel her lips on my neck, softly kissing me, “especially after you left this morning.”
“Charlie,” she says, but her face never moves out of my neck. “Just drop it.”
“No,” I say, tightening my hold on her. Was it the picture?” Her body goes stiff in my arms, “I moved Jennifer’s picture.” I tell her.
She moves away from me now, and I can feel her wanting to get off me. “Charlie.”
“I put it in the living room instead of the bedroom.” I inform her, “I didn’t do it for you, I did it for me.”
“No, you didn’t,” she snaps at me. “You are moving it back into your bedroom; that is where you want it.”
“I want it where it’s at, in the living room.” My hands at her hips squeeze her. “I know you’ll never tell me to move it. I know you’ll never tell me to get rid of it, and that is all I need to know.”