Total pages in book: 72
Estimated words: 66074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 330(@200wpm)___ 264(@250wpm)___ 220(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 66074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 330(@200wpm)___ 264(@250wpm)___ 220(@300wpm)
It warms me to my goddamn toes.
“If you noticed, I addressed this to my sweet husband, Seth, and I have one final thing to say to him and my master, before Seven fully takes over.
You are the Dom of every submissive’s dream. Your instincts and ability to read even the tiniest twitch are nothing short of flawless. You bring me unimaginable pleasure every time you touch me, and there’s nothing more I could ask for. Except one thing.”
My gut clenches at this. There’s something my doll feels she’s missing? Something I’ve failed to provide her as her Dom? Never mind the turmoil from dinner that I tamped down after my talk with Doc—those are mistakes I’ve made as a husband and as a partner in raising our daughter. This is something else entirely.
I continue reading, my voice keeping its normal tone, so she doesn’t feel the need to break character and comfort me, which I know she would if I gave any hint of distress, especially over something she wrote.
“I am the luckiest woman in the entire universe to be owned by you, and it is my wish to be absolutely everything you could possibly want in a sub.”
I go to speak to her, to tell her she is exactly that, but the next line stops me, and I power through.
“I know what you’re gonna say. You’ll tell me I am everything you want in a sub, and you might truly believe that. But I believe I can be better. I want to learn to get past my fears, whatever it is that makes me freeze and unable to obey my master’s order. And the only one who can teach me how is you.
So this is my written permission for you to push past my instinctive boundaries.”
My throat clicks as I try to swallow, because my mouth has gone dry. Every ounce of liquid has suddenly risen to my tear ducts, making it hard for me to see the words written inside the card.
I manage to blink them back after taking a moment to get control of myself, summoning my Dominant side to take over so I can make it through the rest of this heartfelt gift from my wife without crying like a little bitch.
“If I freeze when you give me a command, I do not want you to completely shut down the scene and begin aftercare. Even if that’s what your heart tells you to do because I am your wife and you love me.”
Ah, there it is. That’s what she meant by the only other thing she could ask for. And she’s right. That’s something I never would’ve done unless she specifically asked for it. Even after hearing part of her and Clarice’s phone conversation while she sat in her car, I never would’ve just taken that as a hint and done it on my own. It would’ve only happened if she voiced or wrote her explicit permission to do so.
I clear my throat and finish reading the letter, because I can’t stand waiting to see and touch her any longer.
“I know you are incapable of hurting me. I know that with every fiber of my being. I know that is as true as I do combining hydrogen and oxygen will create water.
And because I know that, and because of your incredible ability to read even the tiniest twitch, as I mentioned above, to know just how far your partner can be pushed, this is also my written oath to my Master, Seven, giving up my right of hard limits. This is the highest gift a submissive can give to their Dominant. A gift not every sub is willing to give, no matter how much they trust their partner or how long they’ve been together, and something most Doms will never receive in their lifetime. But no one in this world is more deserving than you.
I trust you with my body, mind, and soul even more than I trust my own instincts.
I trust you to push me past where my mind and fears tell me to stop.
I trust you to take my body’s natural reaction to freeze the same way you would if a submissive called Yellow, not Red—pause to check in, assess what’s going on, and then continue the way you see fit.
I trust in your judgement, to move past that boundary without going too far, but also to take me far enough I’ll learn to conquer my mind’s control over my body.
I know you’ll never abuse the power I’m handing over to you freely, so I have no doubts about giving you this gift. In fact, I would beg you to take it if you’re hesitant to accept it. This is not only what I want to give you. This is what I want to give myself. To be a sub who can obey her master’s every order without pause, even if fear is still present. I want to be brave.