Total pages in book: 102
Estimated words: 98487 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 492(@200wpm)___ 394(@250wpm)___ 328(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 98487 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 492(@200wpm)___ 394(@250wpm)___ 328(@300wpm)
I grin. “She’s a good mess, though. And remember, your air is so clean.”
He laughs. “Yeah, sure. I feel no difference.”
I laugh too as we turn to look out at the ocean. I didn’t realize how much I missed the sounds of the ocean and how the waves crash into the shore until I was standing in front of it. “I love it here.”
“Yeah, it’s pretty damn awesome,” he says, leaning into me. “So, you’re staying for two weeks?”
“If that’s cool.”
“More than cool. I guess we’ll head back together for Christmas?”
“That’s the plan.”
He nods. “Things seem good with Callie,” he observes, and I smile.
“Real good,” I agree. “She’s amazing.”
“I can tell. It’s like I’m looking at my brother before everything went sideways.”
I meet his gaze. “I’m almost there.”
“You taking your meds?”
“I am.”
“And therapy is good?”
“Real good, and Angie is a whiz at her med recommendations.”
“Yeah. Everyone who needs help on the team is starting to go to her.”
I nod. “That’s awesome.”
“Yeah, I’m proud.”
“You should be.”
He grins, and I love how happy Angie makes my brother. We’ve known Angie and her family for what seems like forever. We grew up together, and in school, Angie and I were close. We never dated, and I’m not sure why. She’s a damn good girl. Owen has always crushed on her, but Angie wouldn’t give him the time of day. Now, though, I don’t think a day could pass without her wanting him. It’s sweet and convinces me what I feel for Callie is even more real. For the longest time, I heard my dad talk about his feelings. How my mom could walk into a room, and he’d be at a loss for words. She stunned him, completely, and that’s how it is with Callie.
I wanted so greatly to experience that feeling, and I think that’s why I waited so long to be intimate with someone. I felt that quickly with Callie, and I know what we have is different and amazing. I just can’t shake the feeling of Nico ruining it all. It’s actually starting to piss me off. I hate feeling like this. I know what we have, I trust what we have, and I know we’re good, but I also know how badly she wants a dad.
How can I come between that?
“Maybe you’ll be ready to come back soon.”
I swallow hard at that, and I look out at the ocean as I lean into the railing. “I need to discuss something with you.”
He leans forward, matching my stance with his elbows on the wood and his eyes locked with mine. “You’re pregnant?”
I give him a dry look, and he laughs.
“Couldn’t help it. I feel like this is about to be deep.”
“I hate you.”
“I know, but this is your reminder to use protection.”
Instantly, my mind goes to being inside Callie with no protection and then coming in her mouth. Not the time to get lost in that memory, so I shake my head. Though, it doesn’t stop the replay of her eyes on mine as I filled her mouth.
Fuck, it was hot.
“As I was saying,” I say, swallowing hard and adjusting myself. I meet his gaze once more and shake my head. “I’m not coming back, Owen.”
Something moves in his eyes. Anger? Fear? Sadness? I’m not sure, but he draws in a deep breath, letting it out in a whoosh as he looks away from me. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah… I don’t want to play anymore. I don’t love it. The passion isn’t there for me any longer. But now, I have this drive to help kids not lose their passion when the fear sets in. Or when their confidence is shot. I want to make sure no one ever ends up the way I did.”
He runs his fingers through his hair, and his shoulders fall with his hands.
The silence makes me nervous, so I start to ramble. “I think I was only supposed to get you settled, ya know? Get you started, and then I had to start my life.”
He gives me a pained look, and here it comes. I brace for impact. “I would never want you to go through that shit, Evan,” he says, holding my gaze. “I mean, I can’t even be upset with your decision. I want that, not only for you, but for all those kids you’re gonna help. As much as I want you beside me, on the ice, I’d rather you be healthy. If your new path is going to make you healthy and happy, then you have nothing but my support, my love, and anything else you need. It’s yours.”
Emotion knocks me square in the chest. My brother is and has always been my favorite person, but I wasn’t expecting this at all. “Thanks, Owen.”
He leans into me, wrapping his arm around my shoulders. “I’m proud of you, Ev.”