Total pages in book: 89
Estimated words: 107074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 535(@200wpm)___ 428(@250wpm)___ 357(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 107074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 535(@200wpm)___ 428(@250wpm)___ 357(@300wpm)
Slowly, I nodded, because I wanted him to just stop talking.
“I know you love me, or the man who I fell in love with loves me, but I just don’t know if that’s enough anymore, Ry.”
“It will always be enough, and I’m going to prove that to you.”
I wanted to believe him, God knew how much, but I couldn’t let myself hope for us anymore. The heartache that I felt when things fell apart was too great.
I somehow stood strong.
“We’re over, Ryder.”
“No, Branna, we aren’t. I told you five years ago that we’d never be over, and I fuckin’ meant it. You’re my world, and I refuse to watch it, you, crumble around me. Just. Fucking. No. I’m going to fix this, I swear it.”
He turned and without another word, stalked out of the house. When I heard the front door slam shut, I dropped to my knees and let out the sob that desperately wanted to break free. I wrapped my arms around my waist, hugging myself as I rocked back and forth.
I did it, I meekly thought. I broke up with Ryder, but he refused to let me go.
A huge part of me clung onto that as a sign that something might be salvageable between us, but fear shut out that ray of light with overwhelming darkness. I couldn’t allow myself to grasp at straws like that. I couldn’t allow myself to think of what happened as anything other than a break up because if I let my mind stray, I would think of scenarios where things could end differently, and that frightened me. I was terrified that if I let Ryder back in and he closed me out again then I would cease to function altogether.
I was afraid he’d ruin me all over again.
Five years ago…
“Dominic and Bee, they’re either datin’ or they’re about to be datin’.”
Ryder’s foot slipped from the clutch of his car, and the gearbox made an unholy sound that caused me to cringe. He quickly shifted gears until the car was purring nicely once more.
“You want to explain that to me?” he asked, flicking his eyes from the road to me then back to the road. “‘Cause we’re on the way to the hospital to see your sister who got injured while beating on my brother because he was beating on her date.”
I didn’t need a reminder; I had just gotten off a phone call to Aideen explaining to her that I would take care of Dominic for jumping Gavin—her little brother. She had to call off her other brothers from finding Dominic and beating the shite out of him. I had to convince her not to end his life, too. The latter was proven the most difficult, but I managed to persuade her that I would make him pay, and I would. Somehow.
“You heard Kane’s twenty-second recap of what happened when he called me after Bronagh called you,” Ryder continued, regaining my attention, “so how did you come to the conclusion that they’re dating or almost dating?”
Do all men have such small brains? I wondered. Or is my man just lucky?
“I’m not disputin’ that Bee likes Gavin Collins, because if they got the chance, I’m sure they’d actually be great together. I’d love to see her date the brother of me best friend.”
“I’m sensing a very big but here,” Ryder sighed.
“But,” I grinned, “even though she went on a date with Gavin tonight, she likes Dominic even though he has been the king of all arseholes from the moment they met. Goin’ on a date with Gavin is her way of tryin’ to force Dominic out of her mind, but it’ll take more than that. Somethin’ about the lad draws her to ‘im, just like somethin’ about her draws ‘im to ‘er. You understand?”
“No, not at all.” Ryder exhaled. “You say the word ‘him’ and ‘her’ so messed up, do you know that? The letter H is just completely disregarded.”
I folded my arms across my chest. “Now is not the time for the pronunciation game, what are we goin’ to do about our siblin’s?”
“Pray they don’t get arrested?”
I growled. “Be serious.”
“I am,” Ryder stressed. “Dominic is on very fucking thin ice, he could have been arrested for fighting with Gavin in school, but he got away with it. He could have gotten arrested when he fought that Jason kid too, or McDonald’s security could have retained him until the cops arrived tonight. He’s messing up and all because he doesn’t know how to handle your sister.”
I scrubbed my face with my hands.
“Can you not talk to ‘im about it?” I asked. “Maybe give ‘im some pointers on how to approach me sister? He still has the compound mentality that when he says jump, women will ask how high? That doesn’t fly here, that’s the backlash he is gettin’ for tryin’ to be bossy and intimidatin’ with Bee.”
Ryder snorted. “Tell me something I don’t know. I’ve been all around the world and I’ve never met women like you, your sister, or Aideen. Irish women can be terrifying. I’m glad my brothers haven’t met Ado yet, she’d horrify them.”
That amused me greatly.
“Tell your brother that.”
“After tonight?” Ryder snorted. “He definitely knows.”
I looked away as my lips turned up in a smirk.
“I love you,” Ryder said, catching me off guard.
I turned and looked at him with adoring eyes.
“I love you too, sweetheart.”
His lip twitched as he watched the road.
“Not that I don’t love hearin’ you tell me that you love me, but why say it now?”
Ryder shrugged. “When we’re around Dominic and Bronagh, we end up fighting because they’re fighting and we feel the need to defend our little siblings. I just wanted to say I love you once more today, in case we’re at each other’s throats in an hour.”
I couldn’t help but smile.
“That’s really sweet, you know that?”
Ryder glanced at me and smiled before returning his eyes to the road.
“I have my moments,” he mused.
“They’re few and far between,” I countered, grinning.
“Which is why when my moments come along, I make them known.”