Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 85414 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 427(@200wpm)___ 342(@250wpm)___ 285(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 85414 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 427(@200wpm)___ 342(@250wpm)___ 285(@300wpm)
During the days we’ve spent on this island, I’ve gotten used to his touch more than ever before. It might have to do with the different toys he keeps shoving up my arse. Whenever he fucks me with one inside me, I feel like my orgasm hits me from a dozen different places all at once.
But deep down, I know it’s not only because of the toys, punishments, or exotic positions. It’s because of him — Jonathan. The way he listens to me, the way he keeps telling me that the past isn’t my fault. I never knew I needed to hear those words from him until he said them.
Whenever we walk or lounge on the beach, we talk about everything. Our lives, our visions, and our goals. For Jonathan, it’s his pursuit of power. For me, it’s proving my artistic streak. The ability to somehow grasp the uncatchable time through design. He raised an eyebrow when I told him that was part of the reason why I chose watches. It might have started with the present Alicia brought me, but it was my fascination with the notion of time that became my driving force.
When I was little, I took time for granted. But after my life flipped upside down, I wanted to commemorate every second possible. When I told Jonathan that after losing my inhibition due to alcohol, he said he was proud of me. And I might have climbed him and demanded he take me then and there.
The fact that he’s turning out to be more than I ever thought I needed is pushing buttons I didn’t know I had.
I don’t know how it happened or why, but Jonathan has effortlessly become an undivided part of my life. I couldn’t get rid of him even if I wanted to.
That’s both terrifying and exciting.
Instead of answering his question, I deflect, “Why do you hate Ethan so much?”
“You know.”
I shake my head in his hold. “It’s not only because of Alicia’s death. If anything, he also lost his factory, wife, and nine years of his life. If you compare things, Ethan had endured more damage than you.”
He traces my jaw with a deceptively tender thumb. “Are you taking his side, wild one?”
“I’m just stating facts. I…I want to get to know you.”
“And you think decoding my relationship with Ethan would do that?”
“Whether you like to admit it or not, he’s the only one you consider a worthy rival.”
“Worthy isn’t the word I would use. Try infuriating.”
“Come on, tell me what it’s all about.”
His thumb continues gliding up and down my skin, creating maddening friction. “All you need to know is that I don’t like him close to you.”
“Why?”
“Because.”
“That doesn’t answer my question.”
“It wasn’t supposed to.”
“Wait. Is it because of your attraction to the same type of women?” I can’t believe I haven’t thought about that before now. It makes complete sense that Jonathan wants me away from Ethan because he thinks Ethan also sees me the way he does.
His thumb halts as he narrows his eyes. “How do you know about that?”
“Ethan told me.”
“Ethan told you,” he repeats with a lethal edge. “What else did he tell you?”
“He said you used to have threesomes and share women, and that you’re attracted to the same type.”
“And then he said he could be better than me, didn’t he? I’m going to fucking murder him.”
“He didn’t say that.”
“He always said that to the women.” His lips twists. “In fact, he didn’t need to. They gravitated towards him anyway.”
“What do you mean?”
He pauses, and I suspect he won’t answer my question, as usual, when he feels pressed, but then he speaks quietly. “In the past, I was always the one the women wanted to fuck, but the one they envisioned a relationship with was Ethan.”
Oh. Jonathan feels like I would be like them. Far from it. It’s crazy, but I wouldn’t choose anyone above him.
“In case you didn’t notice, you’re intimidating, Jonathan.”
He narrows his eyes on me again. “Right.”
“I mean it. You have a god-like presence that no one dares to come near.”
“You did.”
“I would always choose you.”
“Always?”
“Always.”
He smiles a little before he schools his expression. “Ethan is still dead for putting the idea in your head.”
“Stop it.”
“Don’t try to protect him. His life is over.”
“I’m not.” I smile tentatively. “He really didn’t make that suggestion.”
And if he had, I would’ve definitely protected him. Judging by Jonathan’s reaction, he really wouldn’t hesitate to hurt him.
“Ethan is guilty until proven innocent.”
“It should be the other way around, Jonathan.”
“Not in my book.” His facial expression is hard as granite. “What else did he run his mouth about? Don’t leave anything out.”
“Just that and the fact that you prefer broken women. How come the two of you are attracted to the same type?”
He remains silent for a beat before his calm voice drifts all around me like a halo, “It’s a challenge.”