Total pages in book: 91
Estimated words: 87155 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 436(@200wpm)___ 349(@250wpm)___ 291(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 87155 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 436(@200wpm)___ 349(@250wpm)___ 291(@300wpm)
“I could take a shower with you?” she suggested, stepping in so close it was suffocating.
I jumped away before my cock had the chance to sprout arms and claw its way from my boxers. “Jesus Christ, woman. You are so fucking stubborn. There have to be at least five hundred men out there willing to…” I shook my head, unable to finish the thought.
That was mistake number two.
“Willing to what, Ramsey?” She pushed up onto her toes. “Fuck me? Date me? Marry me? What?”
I bit the inside of my cheek, swearing I would give her no reaction. But every single word out of her mouth was a lash from a whip. “Yes.”
“But not you though, right? You want nothing to do with me.”
“Why the fuck are you so desperate?”
She sank back to her heels, the mere inches giving me infinite space. “Well, that’s an easy question. I’m glad you asked.” She trailed a finger down my chest and my cock jumped as though it were the flute of a snake charmer. “Because when I was ten years old, I met a boy. I hated him. But I needed him like my veins needed blood. He broke my leg. He broke my patience. And eventually he broke my heart. But there hasn’t been a minute that’s passed that I haven’t loved him with every single broken shard.”
My throat closed and I staggered back from the impact of her words. She followed me forward, allowing me no reprieve. Thea. Fucking, fucking Thea. She peeled her tank top over her head. I silently gave thanks to the god of bras, regardless of how see-through the damn thing might have been.
Sexy and wild, her long hair, which I ached to wrap around my fist, splayed across her shoulders. She took another step toward me. “We promised we’d be there for each other. We swore to it. But I was the only one who kept that deal. You, on the other hand, have lied to me with your every breath. You inked words onto paper that you weren’t brave enough to say to my face. You blamed me for things that I had no power to change. You robbed me of twelve years of my goddamn life. And at some point this week, you were with another woman while I lay alone in my room, my fingers in my panties with your lips sucking my clit on the backs of my eyelids.”
Oh.
My.
Fucking.
God.
My mouth fell open as all the oxygen was sucked from the state of Georgia.
She canted her head, and her eyes sparkled with defiance. “And guess what? I still fucking love you. So yeah. Maybe I am desperate.” Her hands suddenly snaked around behind her. I tried not to look. I deserved a fucking medal of honor for that effort. But when her bra fell to the floor, there wasn’t enough guilt or hate in the world to keep my gaze from dropping with it. “But I can live with that, because there will never be anyone other than you. I was ten when I fell in love with you. Nothing you say right now is going to change that.”
There was so much I should have said to her.
I love you too.
I’ve always loved you.
I’ve been rotting away from the inside out for years knowing someone was going to take you from me.
You’re my Sparrow, and that will never change.
My brain had it on lockdown though, because that shit was never coming out. However, mistake number three was opening my goddamn mouth.
“I wasn’t with anyone else. I’ve never been with anyone else. I’ve never even wanted to be.”
What. The. Fuck!
She blinked at me for several beats. And then, slowly and triumphantly, her lips curled into a blinding white smile.
Oh, yes. I. Was. Fucked. I prayed like hell that I’d survive, all the while preparing myself not to.
Running her thumbs beneath the waistband of her pajama pants, she never tore her gaze from mine. “Tell me to stop, Ramsey. Tell me I’m making you uncomfortable. Tell me you don’t want to make me come. I’ll walk out of this room and give you your space. One hundred percent, your call.”
My mouth watered as her breasts swayed with her hips as she inched her pants down one side at a time.
I clenched my jaw and fisted my hands at my sides. It was my final stand. Completely and utterly worthless too. It was a seriously lackluster effort.
Her eyes filled with heat as her thumbs hooked with the little pink strings on her panties, dragging them down with her pants. “All you have to do is say no.”
Mistake number four also came from opening my mouth. A-fucking-gain.
My voice shook and my chest heaved. “I’m not sure I can be gentle, Thea.”
She stopped the descent of her pants and stared at me with trust sparkling in her eyes. “I’m not scared of you.”