Total pages in book: 82
Estimated words: 76041 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 380(@200wpm)___ 304(@250wpm)___ 253(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 76041 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 380(@200wpm)___ 304(@250wpm)___ 253(@300wpm)
“Sure okay see you around.” I watched her walk away until she disappeared around the corner. Something told me to watch her until she was out of sight and I was a little surprised when she turned into Dr. Graves’ office. What the hell was she going there for? Huh, maybe she had to drop something off from the diner, but I don’t recall seeing any sacks of food in her hand. I got that gnawing feeling in my gut. The one that always warned me when something was wrong. “You don’t need this shit Matt, whatever is going on with this chick you need to walk away.” I told myself that but even as I walked back to my car I knew I wouldn’t. I hadn’t been able to fight the pull in the last few days no matter how much I’d tried. And at night when I went to bed her eyes still haunted me.
I sat in the car like a sick stalker contemplating whether or not I should wait until she was through at the doc’s or just go home. Instinct told me something was very wrong, and for whatever reasons I couldn’t leave it alone. So now I had a decision to make. Did I really want to get involved, and if so to what extent? I closed my eyes and rested my head against the headrest. Trying to talk myself out of going out on that ledge hasn’t worked very well in the last day or so. I needed to talk to someone who could explain what the fuck was going on with me but there was no way I was ready to bring this up to Josh, he’d be all over this shit.
I think I’m pretty sure of what he would say already, but life couldn’t be that strange. Besides I never felt any of these unsettling feelings with Patti and I could’ve sworn I was in love with her all those years we were together. It’s funny, but I now realize that for as much as she’d turned out to be a vicious snake, our relationship had been, shall we say, less passionate than say, Josh and Carrie’s. I always thought that that’s what I wanted. A nice quiet relationship with the woman I would spend the rest of my life with. I’d had enough of the spicy side of things between my parents and much later my brother and his girl. I’d somehow convinced myself that I’d dodged the bullet that seemed to turn the men in my family into raging lunatics.
When I look at Kadyn I felt what I was beginning to fear were the first strains of that madness. Just a glimpse of her would have my heart doing cartwheels in my chest, my hands would literally itch to get on her, and my skin heats and does its strange tingling shit. “Shit Matt.” I turned the key in the ignition a little rougher than necessary once again pissed the fuck off without reason. I didn’t like the fact that she seemed to have this much control over me in such a short time, it was almost as if I had no say in the matter, as if it had already been decided for me and all that was left was for me to just lay down and roll over. Well fuck that, I’m not about to play the sap again. I don’t even know this girl and she seemed…I don’t know what the fuck.
I headed back to the house deep in thought, something kept niggling at me about the way she’d reacted to my touch but I couldn’t quite put it into words. There was definitely something going on there though and before this thing went any farther I needed to get to the bottom of it. If she was going to disrupt the rest of my fucking life I’m going to need to know what the hell I was dealing with. I don’t need any more surprises I’d had enough of that shit to last a lifetime. Josh and Carrie were right I was acting like an old man, but who could blame me? The last time I’d given of myself I’d been fucked. That annoying voice in the back of my head reminded me that this was nothing like that. Even the way I felt about this complete stranger after just one meeting was stronger than anything I’d ever felt for Patti in the three years I’d known her. I’m not sure what that said about me, and my ability to choose when it came to the opposite sex. Only this didn’t feel like a case of me choosing, more like something else was doing it for me.
Chapter 5
MATT
“I think she’s been hurt.”
“Who what?”
I’d dropped down on the floor in my brother’s room as soon as I got in the house. Since him and his wife weren’t doing the horizontal mambo it was safe to come in. She was downstairs with mom and sis making cookies or some shit in the kitchen and Josh was reading on the computer. This was as rare as an ice storm in summer so I had to get in there while I could.