Total pages in book: 73
Estimated words: 68870 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 344(@200wpm)___ 275(@250wpm)___ 230(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 68870 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 344(@200wpm)___ 275(@250wpm)___ 230(@300wpm)
When I break the kiss, I stare down at her bright green eyes. She looks surprised at me and surprised at herself.
I kiss her hard one last time, and then without a word, I stand up and leave her office.
My wife is going to be Naomi. The sexy librarian who just turned everything in my world upside down.
Chapter Five
Naomi
Ryan walks out without a word, but he leaves behind his taste on my lips and the smell of his skin on mine. It’s a mix of the outdoors and a touch of bourbon, and I crave to have it back. I’m in a daze and my legs are weak from being kissed like it was our last moment on earth. That kiss was nothing like I’d ever felt before. I’m drenched between my legs and I might not be able to walk a straight line.
I reach up and touch my lips, like I can still feel him there.
It was the single hottest thing to ever happen to me. And that voice of his. Jesus. He’s big and sexy and acted like he knew exactly what he wanted to do with me. Like I was a toy for him to play with, and I ached for him to do it. To throw me down on the desk and take out his pleasure on me.
I press the back of my hand to my cheek to try and cool myself down. I’ve never been this worked up in my life. That devious smile of his made him look like the devil, but all I wanted to do was give in to temptation.
Stumbling over to my desk, I sit down and put my head in my hands. I have to keep it together. There are parts of my life he can’t know about. No matter what side he’s on. I can’t be found out. My secrets are too important. Who knows what would be done to me. No matter who my father is, the Regime wouldn’t show mercy. Not to mention the Insurgents need me on the other side. I can’t fail them. Not when I’ve come this far. There is no turning back.
I take a deep breath and push all thoughts of Ryan and that kiss out of my head. I can’t worry about if I’ll see him again or what that kiss even meant. I can’t even listen to my body that’s screaming at me to find some sort of relief. Instead, I throw myself into work and make that my focus.
I work late into the night, archiving as much as I can. I’m proud of myself that I only have to redirect my thoughts a few times because they drifted to Ryan’s lips kissing down my neck.
But once I’m done for the day, I lean back in my chair and let them drift. I allow the thoughts to spark inside me and keep going. I think about his wavy dark hair and how soft it was. Then I’m in a fog of his ice-blue eyes as I remember the edge of mischief they held. His rough hands and how possessive his hold was. Am I remembering it right? Or was it all too good to be true?
I recall the impressive weight between his legs as I pressed against it, and my core clenches. That was unyielding lust, and everything in me is crying out for it.
Why does everything about him turn me on? He’s a bad boy who pushes the rules. This isn’t the type of man I was bred to be with. But for a second, he made me feel not so alone. I could tell even in that short time that he was like me. He pushes the boundaries between what’s right and wrong, and that’s what I’m trying to do.
He’s forward, rebellious, and cocky. Everything I’ve been taught to stay away from. Yet I can’t stop thinking about how much I want him. Thinking about what he might be doing at this moment.
I try to tell myself that Ryan Sharp is bad news. I should do my best to dismiss any idea of seeing him again. He’s impulsive and arrogant. Who grabs a girl like that and just kisses her? Then I blush as I replay it over again in my head.
I don’t have a ton of guys to compare him to. Brad had seemed like a perfect gentleman, just not my type. And if Brad and Ryan were as close of friends as Ryan claims, then Ryan can’t be that bad of a guy. Right? I don’t have any experience when it comes to men. I’ve just been told when the time came I would be matched up and that would be the end of it. Then Ryan barged into my office and everything’s been disrupted.
I sigh as I reach into my desk drawer and pull out a snack. I much on some dried fruit and nuts while I think about what I’ve got to do tonight.