Total pages in book: 61
Estimated words: 57945 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 290(@200wpm)___ 232(@250wpm)___ 193(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 57945 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 290(@200wpm)___ 232(@250wpm)___ 193(@300wpm)
It’s been a busy mornin’, but I can’t deny, my mind has been on Rebel comin’ home.
“Aye,” I tell her. “It’s weird. Before we took the next step in this thing we have goin’ on, I didn’t focus as much on him when he wasn’t around.”
“Well,” she says as she sits beside me, a smile on her face. “You’re both new to this. I remember when Monster and I first admitted our feelings for each other. It was exciting. I wanted to spend every waking moment with him. I know your situation is different, because you’ve known Rebel for years, but I understand how you feel.”
“I’m happy, Miren. It’s been a long while since I could say I’m truly happy,” I confess. “He never showed any interest in me, and ta be fair, I was worried I’d put myself into an unrequited situation where he’d never feel the same fer me.”
She laughs. It’s a soft, tinklin’ sound. “There was no doubt in our minds that he felt the same way.”
“So ye’ve said.” I can’t help but roll my eyes at her. “But I think bein’ around him all those years and him not showin’ any interest, it made me wary.”
“Yeah, it can do that to you. I mean, if I’d told Monster I liked him and he’d ignored me or told me he wasn’t interested, it would’ve hurt. A lot. But I saw how Rebel was around you. When I first arrived here, it was the one thing I was sure of, his feelings for you.”
I don’t know how Miren has got so wise. We’re the same age. I suppose we’ve grown up in very different circumstances. It’s the only explanation I can think of because she truly is more mature than me.
“I suppose ye’re right.”
“I’m always right,” she teases me, leanin’ over ta nudge me with her shoulder, and we break out in a fit of laughter.
“Aye, is that what ye tell Monster then?” I challenge her.
I never even knew I had a sister until Miren arrived at the clubhouse and the truth about my da was revealed. The connection between us came naturally and easily. It feels as if we’ve known each other all our lives.
“Well, I do try, but he’s a stubborn man. I suppose they all are. That’s what we sign up for,” she says with a smile on her face. I can’t deny she’s right. “They’re good men, which is why we’re so in love with them. And I think they know the power they hold over us.”
“Oh, I have no doubt about that,” I agree.
The fact that any of the brothers would kill ta protect the women in the club, whether they’re an old lady or not, is evidence enough they are truly good men. Right down to their souls.
Aye, I know they’ve done things that are questionable. And they’ve all been through things that brought them ta the club in the first place, ta find solace here. But deep down, they’re not evil. I can say that with certainty because I’ve met true devils in my life.
“I’m still in awe at how easily we fell into bein’ a couple. I mean, I didn’t think goin’ from friends ta lovers would be simple, because we know each other so well. I was actually afraid we’d end up feelin’ like we’re siblings.”
This makes Miren laugh out loud, and I join her after a bit because the idea of that ever happenin’ seems surreal now. The sexual tension between Ronan and I has always been off the charts, so I can’t believe it was a genuine fear of mine. I’m enjoyin’ gettin’ ta know him intimately. Learnin’ what he enjoys, and what he doesn’t.
“I doubt there was any way you two would have ended up like that. Whenever he looked at you there was tension. Honestly, it was so obvious to all of us.” She leans back on the sofa and looks up at the ceilin’. “It’s been nice to see you both lowering those walls finally.”
“I never had them up, though,” I tell her earnestly. “He was the one who made sure I was kept at arm’s length for all this time.”
“True,” she says with a nod. “But when you get used to someone always being there, you no longer see what’s in front of you. And I’ve a feeling he was blinded to the possibility of something more, even though we all knew he wanted you.”
“If I think back to the night we met, I remember how possessive he was when Racer offered ta take me on his bike. Rebel was havin’ none of it.”
A warm tingle races through my veins when I think back to that fateful night. I was so close to bein’ killed.
“Which is why I’m telling you, that you had no reason to doubt the man. He’s crazy about you.” As Miren speaks, she looks at me and grins.