Total pages in book: 147
Estimated words: 137176 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 686(@200wpm)___ 549(@250wpm)___ 457(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 137176 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 686(@200wpm)___ 549(@250wpm)___ 457(@300wpm)
I wanted to laugh because I’d made my choice the moment I’d woken up in his arms this morning.
But still…
God, I still wanted to hear the words. I needed to hear them from him.
“Say it, Cass,” I whispered as my fingers explored the muscles of his abdomen. “Please—”
“Fuck, JJ, I need you,” he cut in. I glanced up to see his eyes staring heavenward as if he was asking God for forgiveness. When he looked down, his eyes held mine in a way that I couldn’t have looked away from even if I’d tried. His sapphire eyes were haunted with longing and despair. “Missed you so much,” he added and then he was pulling me forward. His mouth covered mine before I could respond or even process his words.
The kiss was like nothing I’d ever experienced before. My entire life had been about fulfilling the expectations of others, whether it was making my dad proud or behaving perfectly for Sully so I wouldn’t be such a burden to him. I’d always had to follow through on being the right version of JJ to the right people in my life.
Perfect son who did his dad proud by becoming the cop Sean Ferguson had never been able to be.
Perfect little brother who’d stolen his big brother’s dreams without even knowing it.
Perfect cop who stopped the bad guys.
Perfect patient who’d come back from his injuries despite the murmured whispers that he wouldn’t.
After all that, perfect was the last thing I’d been.
Cass had only seen me when I was anything but perfect and yet he kissed me like I was the most beautiful, perfectly imperfect man he’d ever known.
I once again tossed logic aside and went with what my body wanted.
What my heart wanted.
I couldn’t stop the little cry of relief that escaped me as Cass’s lips moved over mine. I wrapped my fingers around the back of his neck and then slid them up into his slick hair. My other hand was stuck between our bodies, but I didn’t even try to move it. Our dicks were mashed up against each other too.
Need wrapped around me, causing my whole body to draw up tight. Cass’s hands were nowhere near my dick. In fact, he was holding my face as he claimed my mouth.
It made absolutely no difference. I was going to come anyway. I could already feel my balls drawing up tight. I’d masturbated plenty of times, and I’d come once or twice with my high school boyfriend who’d been more of a fuck buddy than anything else, but never in my life would I have thought it possible to come without the benefit of fingers wrapped around my dick.
All it was taking was a soul-stealing kiss and gentle fingers cherishing me like I was the most beautiful thing that existed.
I was so caught up in my own haze of need that I wasn’t sure if Cass was also racing toward the finish line. I got my answer when he spun us around so that my back was against the wall of the shower. He grabbed my ass and lifted me enough that our dicks were level. I automatically lifted one leg to make room for his body to become flush with mine. He began thrusting against me as if he were really fucking me. Shivers of delight claimed me every time Cass’s slick cock slid along my own.
With one hand now on the leg I’d lifted, Cass managed to keep us in the same position. He slapped his free hand on the wall next to my head for more leverage and began pounding his hips against mine. The friction of our shafts sliding over each other made something deep inside me start to tighten. It was like firmly holding a coil of string in one hand while the other slowly dragged the line out of the coil. The coil grew tighter and tighter every time the hand pulled at the string.
That was what it was like with every one of his powerful thrusts.
“Cass,” I cried out as the pressure inside of me continued to build. I reached one hand up to wrap around the wrist of the hand he had on the wall and slid the other hand down to grab his ass. I palmed one of his tight globes in an effort to urge him to fuck me harder.
Deeper.
Without warning, both of Cass’s hands grabbed my ass so he could pin me to the wall. I instinctively wrapped my legs around his hips and shoved the hand I had on the wall against the smooth material as best as I could. I was helpless as the coil tightened.
I was so close to the edge.
Too close.
“JJ,” Cass groaned in desperation just before his mouth covered mine in a savage kiss.
“Open your eyes,” I demanded as I tipped Cass’s head up, breaking the kiss.