Total pages in book: 147
Estimated words: 137135 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 686(@200wpm)___ 549(@250wpm)___ 457(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 137135 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 686(@200wpm)___ 549(@250wpm)___ 457(@300wpm)
I’m trying to give you fair warning of what you’d be getting into with me, that way you can’t later say some bullshit like “she was really good at hiding her insanity in the beginning.”
Nope, it’s all here in black-and-white screenshots for photographic evidence, Sir. You’ve been properly notified, and by continuing, you are agreeing to the Terms of Service.
RomanticSadist:
That’s exactly what I was hoping you’d say, little one.
Nothing you say can scare me away.
So here are my rules:
No messing with real life. Family and career first.
If we are to meet and something comes up, just tell the other. It's no big deal. It happens. There will always be another time.
Limited questions or comments about past relationships. This is usually a very solid rule for me, but I know the main reason you were even on that app was to research and gain knowledge for your books from experienced people in the community, so I will make an exception and allow you to ask whatever you need. But that doesn’t necessarily mean I will answer everything you ask.
In public, for now, we’ll have to pretend like we don't know each other. I will rethink this later perhaps, but this is best for now, since people at the gym know me from work, and they may talk to or be the same people who know the little kink author who writes her dirty books in the locker room and café. I can’t have them make that connection between us, because that could potentially break rule #1: No messing with each other’s career.
Sienna:
Soooo... I'll just slide my personal trainer hopes to the back burner then.
RomanticSadist:
And the crazier and more twisted you are, the better, sweet girl. I want you porn-star dirty, fucked in the head, cock crazy, obedient to the point of just wanting to be told what to do and how to be so you can just shut your mind off and go to work pleasing me like you've been taught.
No… I WILL be your trainer.
Sienna:
AT THE GYM lol
RomanticSadist:
Yes, I was also speaking of that.
But your motivation will be very different than what most people seek out a personal trainer for.
Sienna:
As in getting my ass back. Full of MUSCLE... that I grow MYSELF hahaha
RomanticSadist:
Ok. Your timeout is officially over, princess. No more speaking freely without the Sir… unless you don’t agree to my rules.
Sienna:
Aaaaand there it is.
RomanticSadist:
?
Sienna:
Shit, I sent mine before yours came through. Let me fix: Aaaaaand there it is, *Sir*. Also, yes. I agree to your rules.
RomanticSadist:
Oh cheese and rice🙄
Sienna:
I had an epiphany moment, Sir.
RomanticSadist:
Please… share with the rest of the class
Sienna:
I had an epiphany? Epiphany moment? Whatever.
The porn star thing you said, Sir.
THAT HAS to be the fucking reason I'm so drawn to this lifestyle. Because my OCD doesn't let my brain STOP. The appeal of submission has always been so I can’t think anymore.
RomanticSadist:
You're so pretty LOL. I’d say just epiphany covers it.
And you're only partly right on the lifestyle/OCD thing.
Sienna:
Seven years of research and a gajillion fucking books on it later, it just now clicked for MYSELF. Even after making that the same goddamn reason for my heroines. I swear to God, Sir.
RomanticSadist:
Told you. Strong, intelligent, decision-making, successful women are drawn to it. They do "male mentality" all day and just want to be a “woman” and have a man be the man. Yes. Your brain constantly running falls into the please-shut-my-brain-off category. But—
Sienna:
The praise kink, I totally always got about myself. That was kind of a duh, Sir. I have all these intrusive, repetitive thoughts, and a Dom giving praise is like getting reassurance over and over. It's... fucking blissful, Sir. 10/10.
RomanticSadist:
—that's just purely submission. Your desire to PLEASE is from something else. Sometimes, someone just TRULY enjoys pleasing others, being the bright spot in their day.
Lol! That was what I was going to type next, but I knew you had to know that one.
Sienna:
Oooo, interesting. Ok, let me overthink this right quick, Sir...
RomanticSadist:
Can't wait...
Sienna:
LMAO!!!!!!
RomanticSadist:
*counting the seconds
Sienna:
I just scared my cat I laughed so suddenly, Sir hahaha
RomanticSadist:
Here's something for you to overthink then. Let's say your desire for praise and reassurance comes from intrusive thoughts and insecurity.
BUT as time goes on… I train and teach you to be what I want... AND you start to believe and KNOW it in your OWN mind to be true, because I tell you and I trained you to be my fantasy…
The intrusive ones are still there, but the trained thoughts slowly get louder.
You'll still have many voices in that crazy head of yours, princess, but I'm going to be the one telling them what to say.
Sienna:
I…
I just screenshot that last message to set as my background on my phone so I can read it like a mantra whenever I need to look forward to something.
That sounds like everything I’ve ever wanted, Sir.