Total pages in book: 35
Estimated words: 32618 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 163(@200wpm)___ 130(@250wpm)___ 109(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 32618 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 163(@200wpm)___ 130(@250wpm)___ 109(@300wpm)
She didn’t answer for several seconds, and in that time, he turned them and walked her backward until the wall stopped her.
“What’s happening, David?” She sounded scared, her voice shaking slightly.
“Do I frighten you?” he asked and leaned down so their mouths were only inches apart.
She nodded once but arched her chest, pressing her breasts against him. “Yes,” was all she said.
“Do you want to hold back from me?” He was challenging her, and he didn’t know why he’d let himself get to this point. He should have been stronger, should have controlled himself better around her. But the events of tonight, the need he’d had built up inside of him, and having Gillian here right now was his undoing.
“I don’t have anything holding me back. Not anymore.” She swallowed on that last word, and he knew she wasn’t being honest with herself or him.
He reveled in the smoothness of her skin and felt like the world was crashing down around him. It was because of this woman that he’d move heaven and earth to please her. It was because of his feelings for her that he’d walk through hell just to see her smile, if that’s what she wanted.
“Tell me what you want, Gillian.” He knew what he wanted, but he wasn’t going to go there at this moment. He wanted to see what she wanted, where she stood.
She stared into his eyes, and he felt his heart beat a little faster at the vulnerability he saw. God, did this woman know the power she held over him? Fuck, did he realize the power she held over him?
I know exactly what she does to me, exactly how much strength she exerts over me with just one look.
“If I let myself feel these emotions, they might ruin us, ruin what we have, David.” She whispered the words, and although she spoke them, she also didn’t try to move away. In fact, she pressed her breasts more firmly to his chest, and he moved an inch closer, impossibly closer.
“Nothing will get ruined, baby.” At least, that’s what he told himself.
She shook her head, and the smile she gave him broke his fucking heart. “I could ruin everything, and it wouldn’t take anything at all.”
She’s trying to fight this.
“I owe you a lot, David. Not only because you were there for the Brian shit but because after that you stuck by my side.”
His heart beat faster at her admission.
“I’ll always be here for you,” he said softly, their lips still inches apart.
“When it seemed like I was breaking, like everyone around me was going in the other direction, you were always there.”
If she really knew him, knew what he’d done and how close he’d really been to her, then she wouldn’t be looking at him with such gentleness right now.
Then fucking tell her all of it.
He was too afraid of losing her to say a damn word. And before anything else could be said, he kissed her hard and deep, just wanting to forget anything that didn’t have to do with right here, right now.
Chapter
Fourteen
David kissed her like she was about to leave him forever, like she’d just disappear, and he’d never have this chance again. Everything else didn’t matter aside from this one moment and making Gillian feel good, making her see that he wanted her above all else.
He couldn’t have walked away from her if a gun had been pressed to his head, but it seemed it didn’t matter because Gillian was moaning and kissing him back just as fiercely.
She speared her hands in his hair, tugged at the strands, and made these small noises in the back of her throat. He swallowed the sounds, needing more, and wanting her to surrender every part of herself to him.
This was what he’d wanted from the moment he realized he couldn’t let her be with anyone else. He wanted her as his own. It had been so fucking hard holding back, keeping his feelings in check. But none of that mattered.
He took a step back, planning on taking her to the bedroom because he couldn’t stop this, couldn’t stop what he wanted. And what he wanted was her under him, submitting in every way imaginable.
“I don’t want you to let me go,” she whispered.
He froze, looked down at her, and saw her eyes still closed, her mouth slightly parted. He moved his thumb along her bottom lip, pulled the soft, slightly damp flesh down, and watched it move back into place when he let go. She was so fucking beautiful, so pliant for him, giving, and not letting her inhibitions control her. Whatever happened when this was all over was still a mystery, but right now, he could show her how precious she was to him. He’d do anything for her, even kill without a second thought.