New Hope, Old Grudges Read Online Anne Malcom

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“Turn it back on,” I demanded.

Brody didn’t turn it back on. He tossed the remote on the end table, out of my reach, then positioned himself on the couch so he was closer, facing me.

“I swear to God, Will, I did not understand the weight of what was happening to you.” His tone was full of regret. “And that’s not an excuse. I should’ve. I was a stupid fucking kid full of anger. I was so self-absorbed, so fucking determined to be better than him, when in reality, I was him. A bully.”

It wasn’t hard to guess who he was talking about. My mind went back to that day, that horrible day. I thought about the sound of the slap, the sneer of disgust on his father’s face, the tears in teenage Brody’s eyes.

“My dad hated me,” he continued. “Because I reminded him of my mom, I think. Because I was the one who killed her.”

“What are you talking about?” I asked, forgetting that I was supposed to be avoiding meaningful conversations. “Your mom died giving birth.”

I knew the story. Everyone in New Hope knew the story. It was tragic. His mom died in childbirth, so his heartbroken father raised him by himself. He was at every one of his games, was by all accounts the perfect father to the town’s golden boy.

But all was not as it seemed. I knew that firsthand.

“My mom died giving birth to me. Therefore, it was my fault.”

I opened my mouth. Shut it again. There was so much sadness in his voice. A mature kind of sadness, that had been planted, taken root then grown big over the years.

“That is insane,” I said finally. “You were a baby. Your life has nothing to do with her death.”

I didn’t know why I was comforting him, all I knew was I had an overwhelming urge to take his pain away and kick his dad in the shins, even though he was in his sixties.

Brody shrugged. “That’s not why I’m telling you that. I’m letting you know why I was a piece of shit back then. Even though the reasons don’t matter much when plenty of people had it worse, yet they managed to turn into much better people.”

“I don’t want to talk about this anymore.” I pursed my lips. I didn’t like remembering that period of my life. Didn’t like that I was beginning to understand Brody, to forgive him. I didn’t know who I was without my grudges.

He looked like he was going to push it, but then he nodded once. “What do you want to talk about, then?”

I motioned to the dead TV. “I don’t want to talk. I want to watch the movie.”

When he didn’t turn it on or say anything, I forced myself to look at him. Brody’s eyes were electric. My fingertips tingled as I took a small sip of wine. “You wanna come get the remote?” he invited playfully.

Holy. Shit.

Hello, ovaries.

I was getting whiplash from all of the different sides of Brody I was seeing all in one night. There was the heroic sheriff. The concerned man. The caregiver. The cook. The dog dad. The tortured soul. And now this, the sexually playful mountain man.

It was all too much.

“Fine, we’ll talk,” I groaned, leaning forward to refill my wine glass. I felt Brody’s eyes on me the entire time, and my upper lip started sweating.

I leaned back on the comfortable couch, suddenly very aware of my lack of bra and my aching nipples.

“What do you want to talk about?” I asked after a silence that was too long and too loaded with sexual tension.

“How about where you’ve been for the past eighteen years.”

“I’m sure you know my Dad is—was— a blacksmith,” I corrected, having trouble thinking about my father in the past tense. A hole inside of me throbbed at the reality of my father only existing in the past, in memories I hadn’t known I needed to treasure, keep safe so they didn’t become fuzzy at the edges like they were now.

“Yeah, I know,” Brody grinned. “All of my horse’s shoes were made by him.”

I didn’t know what surprised me more—that Brody had horses or that my father had shod them. It wasn’t out of the ordinary for people to have horses here, so I didn’t know why I was surprised. And if people had horses around here, their shoes were made by my father.

“Your father was a great man,” he added.

My spine prickled with discomfort. Brody had known my father as an adult, had liked him. Again, that was not uncommon. My father was a well-liked man. It was almost impossible to dislike him. He was patient, kind, easy to laugh, and lent a hand to anyone who needed it. Whether they deserved it or not.

Of course, my father hadn’t known that Brody was one of my high school tormentors. My father hadn’t known I’d been tormented.


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