Total pages in book: 90
Estimated words: 87298 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 436(@200wpm)___ 349(@250wpm)___ 291(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 87298 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 436(@200wpm)___ 349(@250wpm)___ 291(@300wpm)
Ramsey bites down on her bottom lip as I grip my cock, and lean forward, sliding it over her wet pussy. Moving, I brace my hands on either side of her head while my cock weeps, begging to be inside her. I ignore him and his needs and focus on Ramsey. “All you have to do is tell me to stop.”
“I won’t.”
“But tell me that you know that you can.”
Her hands land on my cheeks. Her big blue eyes tell me she’s speaking her truth. “I know that if I want to stop, you will stop. I know that you love me and that you would never hurt me. I know that this means that I’m yours, and you’re mine. The forever kind of love. What I don’t know is why we’re still talking about it.”
“So sassy.” I bend my head and kiss her. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“Guide me inside, baby.” I’m taking this slow. Not because I’m afraid of hurting her, but because every man in her life before me took from her. She was never allowed to choose before, and I want her to know she will always have a choice with me. Sure, I want to push inside and fuck her, chasing my release I’ve been craving since the moment I laid eyes on her, but I’m not going to do that. I’m a man who can show restraint when needed, and for the first time we have sex, it’s needed.
There’s a slight tremble in her hands as she grips me, reminding me again that this is more than just sex. This act is sealing our fate. It’s as if she, too, is realizing this is her last first time as well.
Carefully, she guides me to her entrance, and I push in. She tenses, and that won’t do. Lowering myself, careful of my weight not to crush her, I kiss her. Slowly, my tongue slides against hers until I feel her relax. I push in a little further and pause, giving her the time she needs. I kiss her and then give her a little more. Not just of my cock, but me.
“Almost there, baby,” I mumble against her lips.
“I want all of you, Deac. Please,” she pants. “Give me all of you.”
With her words, I push all the way in, and she cries out. Only this cry, it’s not of pleasure, it’s of pain. I freeze and stare down at her. She’s biting on her bottom lip, and a tear rolls down her cheek.
My tongue is thick. I can barely form words. I open my mouth to speak, but it’s not happening. Slowly, I pull back and look between us. That’s when I see her truth. The one she didn’t use her words to tell me.
I take a deep breath, slowly exhale, and find my voice. “Baby, why is there blood on my cock?” She turns her head, not willing to look at me, but that’s not going to work. Bracing my weight on one elbow, I move to cradle her face in my palm, and she flinches. “Hey,” I say softly. “Ramsey, look at me.” I wait until I have her full attention. “I’m going to need your words, sweetheart.”
She nods.
“Tell me.” It’s still demanding but not as harsh as before. She shakes her head, and again I’m not taking no for an answer. Not with her words. “There is no wrong answer here, Ramsey. I just need to hear your words, baby. I need you to tell me.”
“I-I wanted it to be you.”
Fuck. Six words wrap themselves around my heart like a vise. I don’t know what’s happening to me. It’s almost as if my heart physically leaves my chest and jumps into hers. The love I have for her is greater than anything I’ve ever felt in my life. Why is it that knowing she gave this to me, that she got to choose this, and it was me she chose, makes my eyes water? How did I not know she was a virgin?
What is it about her that has my heart dancing in my chest to a beat that can only be heard by her?
“Are you mad?”
I’m shaking my head before she’s even finished asking. “No. I’m not mad. I’m honored. I’m humbled and ecstatic that he didn’t take that from you. You chose me, and my heart feels like it’s going to explode.”
She smiles, wiping at her tears. “Can you maybe ask your heart to wait until we’re done?” She lifts her hips, and I slide inside smoothly this time.
My lips find hers as I pull out and push back in. Leaning down on my elbows, I clasp my hands on top of her head as my hips slowly rock into hers. Just moments ago, I was racing to chase the high of my orgasm, and I still want that, but right now I want this moment more. This is her first time, and fuck me, I’m going to make it special for her. I’m going to be gentle with her and show her how much she means to me. We have the rest of our lives to have dirty, sweaty fucking. Right now, I’m doing exactly as she asked.