Total pages in book: 138
Estimated words: 136025 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 680(@200wpm)___ 544(@250wpm)___ 453(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 136025 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 680(@200wpm)___ 544(@250wpm)___ 453(@300wpm)
Farrow is going to win every damn time.
“Sorry,” I say, wishing he could see that I’m standing five feet away on purpose. Wishing that he could, maybe or somewhat, take into account that it’s pushing 4:00 a.m. and I might be tired. Or anxious or nervous or scared—because if I were Xander, I’d be all of those things.
And I don’t like thinking about my brother or sisters or cousins in these situations without me there. Right now, most of them are miles and miles away from me.
Cubs guy squints in the dim light. “Is that dice? Can we join? You betting or what?”
If I say no for a third time, I’m the dick. They’ll forever consider me a rude, standoffish celebrity. In an alternate universe where I’m single and not with Farrow, and I say yes, then my night is over. There’s no such thing as just hanging out with strangers or fans or whatever.
I have to put on a public persona like a facemask. It’s me, but not all of me. It’s not completely real.
Right when I’m about to say no, Farrow cuts in and tells them, “We’re actually done with the game.”
Cubs guy wobbles and checks over his shoulder. “Is Jane Cobalt here?”
I solidify.
The entire bar goes quiet. I wait for him to mention the rumor, but maybe he’s just asking because she’s Jane Cobalt. Or maybe no one even cares about the tabloid garbage fire anymore.
I can’t tell yet.
“Nope,” I say. “Not here.”
“But she’ll be at the meet-and-greet tomorrow?”
“That’s what you two are here for?” Farrow asks, chewing his gum.
“Hell yeah,” Danny says. “I’m a huge fan of The Fourth Degree. Gotta get my merch signed by the son of Halway Comics. I missed you at Comic-Con last year.”
I didn’t attend that one, but when I do go, I usually stop by the Halway Comics booth. My dad built the comics publishing company from the ground up before I was born.
I nod a couple times. “Jane will be at the meet-and-greet.”
“Cool, cool,” Danny says and nudges his friend’s arm.
Cubs guy takes one step forward. “Hey, do you think I could get like a private interview with her or something? I’m not shitting you when I say…that I think she might be my soul mate.”
Thatcher stands off his stool. “Don’t push your luck, kid. Security will be tight tomorrow. No private interviews or anything in quotes or asterisks.”
“What about italics?” the Cubs guy snickers.
Quinn sticks up for his client too. “No, seriously, she’s a real person. If you’re just trying to fuck with her—”
“No, no,” Danny butts in. “Sorry, my friend’s kinda drunk. He just likes Jane Cobalt. He won’t be weird, I promise.” He smiles sympathetically at me. “And that totally sucks about the tabloids. Just so you know, no one I’ve talked to at the FanCon here believes it.”
I nod, my chest rising. Not even realizing how badly I needed to hear that from a stranger. “Thanks. I appreciate it.”
They spend about two more minutes telling me how they wish Loren Hale could be at the FanCon. They love my dad, and at that, they leave the bar.
Tension evaporates, and then Oscar reminds me and all of SFO, “Someone has a dare to fulfill.”
Great.
Read the last dirty text you sent. I keep an elbow on the wet tabletop. Standing near Farrow. I scroll through our text message thread with one hand. “Hold on.” It’s not like we’re apart a lot and need to text in the first place.
But have we before? Since the phone security update?
Yeah.
We have.
Farrow and the other bodyguards make small talk while I search. Quinn mops up a spill. “She’s into you,” he tells Akara. “I saw her watching you in Cleveland.”
“Who?” Oscar asks.
“Macey,” Akara says and puts his baseball hat on backwards. “Jane’s line coordinator. She’s cute.”
“But…” Farrow waves him onward.
“She’s tour crew, and I’m a lead in the security team.”
“Yeah.” Donnelly nods, smoke billowing out of his nose. “I’ve heard of that romance movie before. It’s on Lifetime.”
“Hallmark,” Farrow quips.
Akara gathers all the dice. “Not into that drama.”
I suddenly land on my recent dirty text—and my brain flat-lines, short circuits. Sputters and spins. Warning signs flash like do not pass go.
Stop while you fucking can.
Mostly, I feel like I need Farrow’s consent. This is a text about him. Us. Fuck. I rub my mouth and my eyes lift.
They’re all staring right at me.
Farrow balances his knee on the peg of a stool. At ease. I was about to ask do you care if I share this but I can already tell he doesn’t. Maybe he even remembers the text word-for-word.
Donnelly hunches forward. “High-key anticipating this.”
I take a breath, confident. No reservations left.
Instead of reading the text to them, I turn slightly. More towards Farrow. And I tell him, “I’m going to fuck you deep and hard until your legs give out.”