Total pages in book: 79
Estimated words: 80074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 400(@200wpm)___ 320(@250wpm)___ 267(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 80074 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 400(@200wpm)___ 320(@250wpm)___ 267(@300wpm)
She shook her head, confused. “What?”
“You think I’d just fuck you?”
“Wait. What?” She shook her head again. “What just happened? Why are you suddenly so pissed?”
“After all these years, all this time, all the bullshit we’ve been through together. You honestly think you’d just be another fuck for me?”
“I... I mean ... what else would I be?”
My eyes widened, fuckin’ hurt.
“Wow.”
“Oh, come on, Jackson... We’re just having some fun, right? This isn’t serious. You’re going away to college soon. I’m still in Oak Island. Not to mention ... we hate each other, yeah? It’d never work between us.”
“Really? ’Cuz it sure as shit has been working since we were kids.”
“What? All we’ve ever done is torture each other. What would you call that?”
I leaned in to her face. “Fuckin’ foreplay.”
“You can’t be serious. You’re totally messin’ with me right now, aren’t you?”
“Right. ’Cuz I would pick this moment where my cock is so fuckin’ hard, aching to be balls deep inside of you to mess with you.”
She signed. “I don’t know what you want me to say.”
“Nothing.” I shook my head. “I don’t need you to say another damn thing. You already said everything I needed to know.” I got out of the hot tub and left her there.
“Jackson, don’t go.”
I froze, halting my steps. Not looking back, I spoke the truth, “I’d never be able to take you drunk. Jesus Christ, Harley, I’d never be able to just fuck you, and I thought you knew that.”
“How? How am I supposed to know that? It’s your favorite thing to watch, remember? You said it earlier.”
I snapped around, facing her again, and replied with conviction, “’Cuz it’s you. Us. Since the day I first met you, you’ve been mine. To fight with. Watch out for. Protect and defend. When you’ve been waiting as long as I have to really have you... Take you. Mark you. Be with you. You don’t do it bent over the side of a rented hot tub! For fuck’s sake, baby girl, of all people I’d expect you to want your first time to be special! ’Cuz I’ve always known it’s what I’ve wanted for you.”
She grimaced, jerking back. “I thought this was what you wanted. Why you’ve teased and taunted me for years. To fuck me.”
“Oh trust me, Harley. I do. But even when I do fuck you, own you, I’d still be making love to you. Why? ’Cuz it’s you, and I thought you knew that.”
This time I did turn and leave.
Feeling like a fuckin’ failure.
Every step of the way...
Back to my room.
Chapter 15
<>Harley<>
Jackson completely ignored me the next day.
He didn’t say one word to me. He wouldn’t even look in my direction. He barely even came out of his room.
We hadn’t spoken since he left me in the hot tub all alone the previous night. There was so much I wanted to say to him. So much I needed him to hear.
Yet nothing.
He was completely and utterly shutting me out.
“You okay?” Shiloh questioned, walkin’ into my room. Tearin’ me away from my plaguin’ thoughts.
“Yeah, of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?”
“Oh, come on, Harley. It’s me. I know what’s going on between you two. What’s always been going on since we were kids. What happened? You guys seemed to be on the same page for once.”
“Ugh!” I plopped down on my bed, takin’ a deep breath. “I don’t even know. He’s sooooo confusin’! It’s really, really, really fuckin’ annoyin’!”
She shut the door behind her to give us some privacy. Sittin’ down next to me, tappin’ her lap for me to lay my head on her legs. She started playin’ with my hair like she’s done numerous times. Soothin’ me.
“Keep going.”
“Well ... we had the best day yesterday. Seriously, it was probably one of the most amazin’ days. We hung out, talked, laughed, teased each other. It was perfect, Shiloh.”
“So what happened to this perfect day?”
I sighed. “I couldn’t stop thinkin’ about Willow.”
“Harley, that was forever ago.”
“I know, but I can’t help it. I don’t trust him, and I know that’s beyond an irrational way of thinkin’. We weren’t together. He didn’t cheat on me, though it feels like he did.”
“Does he know that?”
“Yes. No. I don’t know.”
“Maybe you should tell him, and make sure he understands where your feelings are coming from.”
“Why are boys so stupid?”
“It’s part of their appeal.”
I scoffed out a chuckle.
“You know that day at school when I found out the rumors were true? That you had caught them. I couldn’t help but feel hurt you didn’t tell me.”
“Shiloh, I already told you I didn’t know how to say it. I wasn’t ready to admit I had feelings for him at the time of his betrayal. Shit,” I breathed out, shakin’ my head. “I’m still not ready to admit those feelings.”