Lost In Seoul – My Summer In Seoul Read Online Rachel Van Dyken

Categories Genre: Alpha Male, Chick Lit, Contemporary, Forbidden Tags Authors:
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Total pages in book: 84
Estimated words: 82271 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 411(@200wpm)___ 329(@250wpm)___ 274(@300wpm)
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I’m instantly uncomfortable and bypass the kitchen where I hear laughter and charge right into the only room I can find that’s quiet.

It’s a home gym.

I take off my shirt and I start doing pull-ups.

Followed by push-ups.

I’m in the gym for at least two hours until my body’s spent, until I’m not thinking about her cruelness, or about sex with her, kissing her—or about Rae’s words.

By the time I shower and crash in my shared room with Jay, I’m exhausted both mentally and physically.

Jay’s on his phone. I can see the screen light up with a text.

“Who you talking to?”

“Oh you know,” He texts back then quickly turns off the screen. “One of my many lovers.”

I laugh and turn on my side. “It was your mom wasn’t it?”

He throws a pillow over onto my side of the room. “Shut up, she said she’d send snacks!”

“I would do a lot for snacks.” I mutter. “I mean not to your mom, no not like—“ He’s on top of me before I can shove him away, slamming a pillow across my face.

I laugh so hard despite the fact he’s beating the shit out of me that I forget momentarily about the sadness. “Get off!”

I finally shove him onto the ground.

He looks up at me.

My stomach growls.

His follows.

All it takes is one head nod. “You think they have Turtle Chips?”

“Or at the very least Ramen.”

I stumble out of bed, help him to his feet, and we run into the kitchen only to see all of TestME cooking food.

Jay points at the Ramen cooking. “If you guys share, I promise I’ll turn a blind eye to the chocolate on the counter.”

Ji-Woo grabs the chocolate bar, damn is he going to pet it?

Eric gulps down a can of soda, which technically before a comeback is completely off limits.

“They don’t start filming again until five am,” I say helpfully. “So what about a truce?” I don’t wait for them to say anything, I just go to the pantry, grab whatever bags of chips I can find and toss them onto the counter.

The guys’ eyes all widen.

“My man.” Jay does a little fist bump. “Imagine if we had cheese dip.”

We all eat in silence. You’d think we hadn’t eaten a day in our lives, and when Chul busted out some cookies, it was like this weird moment of everyone just satisfying their hunger and swearing each other to silence.

When Jay and I finally got to bed later full of junk food, I realize I enjoyed myself. It wasn’t so bad—they weren’t so bad, they were pleasant.

I have no clue how much trauma we would all experience or how needed this bonding would be. On every level.

Chapter Nine

Ari

It’s four am and I still can’t sleep.

Instead, I’m watching YouTube videos… well, Sookie to be more specific. I’m watching Sookie on YouTube. And I can’t stop. I’m officially a stalker. I wonder if it’s creepier that I’m living next door to him and watching fan made videos and Tik-Toks rather than texting him?

I can’t stop though.

It’s this impulsive need.

And it makes me smile.

He makes me smile.

What the hell am I even doing? I’m a grown ass woman sitting on YouTube lusting after a guy I can never have. I’m analyzing every move. Every smile. Every goddamn detail because I just…

I just…

And more than that… I miss his hugs.

It sounds dumb, even in my own head, but it’s what I remember the most about Sookie. It’s what I obsess about the most. It wasn’t that he kissed me, or the way he kissed me, it’s not the way he makes my body heat up. It’s not the lust or desire… it’s that he gives a damn about me. He sees me.

Me.

And I know this because of the way he touches me.

The way he holds me.

It was the way he held me.

An embrace verses his mouth on mine.

He held me. He held me like I mattered. Like I was the most precious thing in the world to him. Like he would always keep me safe.

And…

I held him back with the same veracity and need. I held him back like he mattered too… Because he does. More than anything. He does.

And those few seconds of us touching each other was everything to me. They meant something—like our touch transcended all the blocks around us. It feels like a lifetime ago… touching him.

I would trade the world for a taste of those few seconds again.

I would give anything to experience that love he embraced me with—without even trying. And I know watching him on YouTube is truly not helping anything right now. It’s just making me resent everything about my life. My job. Why he has to be an idol—like why? And why I had to fall for him. I wish I could hate him. It’s so much easier to find reasons to hate a person than accept the fact that you love them.


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