Total pages in book: 158
Estimated words: 145729 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 729(@200wpm)___ 583(@250wpm)___ 486(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 145729 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 729(@200wpm)___ 583(@250wpm)___ 486(@300wpm)
“I can’t… I can’t…” Her head thrashed, her body bucking back against his wildly.
“Fly, baby, now. Go high.” He drove deeper, lifting her hips into him, taking the lower half of her body right off the bed so he had more of an angle.
She screamed again, a long wail of joy as her body clamped down hard, convulsing around his. Over and over, the ripples kept coming and he kept driving right through them, feeling that burning pleasure that rocked him from his toes to the top of his head. He didn’t know if she had one long continuous orgasm or if the hard pistoning of his body brought her up over and over fast, but those muscles worked his cock until he had no way to stop his release.
He’d never felt anything like it, that fire spreading through him like a storm, flames licking over his skin, through his groin, consuming him. His roar of satisfaction was nearly as loud as her screams. She milked him for every last drop, wringing him dry. He collapsed over top of her, his arms stretching out along hers to find her hands. He threaded his fingers through hers and tried not to let his body come down from that place she always took him.
They lay there, Joshua fighting for breath, fighting to keep it together. She’d taken him over. Taken his heart. His soul. She fucking owned him. He might say it was the other way around, but he knew every inch of him belonged to her. It was terrifying.
“Are you all right?” He pressed kisses into the nape of her neck and down her spine.
“Yes. But I can’t walk. I’m not certain I can sit either.”
He smiled and just the fact that she could make him smile when his heart beat out of control and deep inside he was panicking that he would lose her was a miracle. He rubbed her left cheek and then her right, his thumb sliding along those marks with reverence and pleasure.
“You don’t deserve to sit. You took years off my life, Sonia.” He rolled off her and pressed his fingers to his eyes. “God, baby. I never want to feel like that again.”
She rolled to her side and put her arm around his waist. “I’m sorry, Joshua. I couldn’t think beyond getting them away from you.”
“I told you what happened in Borneo. What I became. What I did. That’s what got out tonight. I could have hurt a lot of people. I would have. I would have walked through a river of blood to get you back. Understand that. Understand what I’m saying to you. You don’t put yourself in danger. You or our children. Not ever. You can’t ever let that monster loose on the world. I’m not certain you could live with the things he’s capable of doing, and I wouldn’t let you go.”
There was a small silence. He opened his eyes, turned his head and looked at her. She had tears tracking down her face. “I won’t, Joshua. I won’t do that to you. I know it was bad in Borneo, but whatever you did, they deserved it.”
“No one deserves the things I did. A bullet in the head, yes. What I did, no. There’s always going to be that darkness in me, Sonia.” He hesitated, his hand reaching for hers. He waited until their fingers were threaded together. “I’m always going to need what we have now, in the bedroom. You know that, don’t you?” He wanted so much more for her and he vowed he’d learn gentle. He’d learn how to touch her with the reverence he felt for her, at least sometimes.
She nodded and leaned close to brush a kiss along his bicep. “I need it too. I wouldn’t let you touch me that way if I didn’t want it. I’ve learned a lot about myself in this last year. I’ve had to grow up and rely solely on myself. That was good for me. I know if you ever did something I didn’t like, I’d tell you.”
He had no idea he’d been knotted up inside. Waiting for her to tell him she couldn’t handle the things he needed. He should have known better. She was – everything. He brought her hand to his mouth and brushed kisses along her knuckles. “I would stop immediately. I want to give you pleasure, Sonia. I love to hear you scream my name. Making you wait heightens what you feel.”
She nuzzled his shoulder. “I’m aware of that. It’s just that when you’ve got your hands or mouth on me, sometimes it’s so intense I think I might lose my mind.”
Only Sonia would admit so matter-of-factly that she was into their play as much as he was. “When you give me everything like that, your complete trust, it turns me inside out.” He smiled at the her. “God, you’re beautiful. Not just outside, baby; deep down where it counts. When I’m with you, I forget every damn thing I’ve ever seen or done. You take it all away.”