Total pages in book: 138
Estimated words: 130924 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 655(@200wpm)___ 524(@250wpm)___ 436(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 130924 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 655(@200wpm)___ 524(@250wpm)___ 436(@300wpm)
His gaze hardens, blackens, turns into the gaze of a would-be killer. “I didn’t leave your side. It was the horseman. You know I can’t control him.”
“That’s funny, because I could have sworn you said something last night about being able to control him one day.”
“So I was wrong,” he snaps.
“Boys,” Kat says, putting her hands on both our chests. “It’s quite obvious the horseman did it, whether you wanted him to or not, Brom.” She eyes me. “We can’t keep blaming him every time someone loses a head.”
“Oh really?”
“Crane, be kind,” she admonishes me. “You know…”
She trails off and a flush of embarrassment comes across her cheeks as she shifts slightly.
“What?” I ask.
“I, uh, have to go. I’ll find you later,” she says and starts walking off quickly towards her dorm.
“What’s wrong with her?” Brom asks.
“Lady problems,” I surmise, watching her go. Then I reach out and grab Brom by the arm and yank him back toward the building. I practically drag him down the hall until we’re back in the classroom and I have the door shut and him pressed up against it, my forearm at his throat.
“You want to tell me again, now that Kat’s not around, that you had nothing to do with the constable’s death?”
He just stares at me, his mouth a hard line.
Finally, I let him go and he sucks in a greedy gulp of air.
“Be honest with me, Brom, for once,” I say, running my hands through my hair and tugging. “Please.”
“I see why you like it when I say please,” he eventually says. He looks away, rubbing his lips together. “I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what you want to hear.”
“The truth,” I plead. “All I care about is the truth.”
“Even when it hurts?”
“Especially when it hurts,” I tell him. “Because that means it’s real.”
“Fine,” he says in a clipped voice. He walks over to me and places his hands on my shoulders, and for a moment, a brief moment, I’m afraid he means to hurt me.
But instead, he gives my shoulders a tight squeeze and looks me dead in the eyes.
“I killed the constable,” he says flatly. “I told the horseman to do it, and I saw it happen through my own eyes.”
I feel faint, but his hands keep me in place. “Why?”
“Because,” he says. “I didn’t like what the constable said to me. I didn’t like how he was treating you and Kat. I didn’t like him, period. And the horseman demanded a sacrifice, and that’s who I chose, Crane. That’s how this works. That’s how I’m able to keep him from hurting the ones I love.”
“You can control him,” I whisper, though my heart is stumbling over the fact that he used the word love.
He wiggles his jaw, hedging that. “I’m trying to. This is what I have so far.”
“Oh, Brom,” I say, my heart sinking. “You poor boy.”
“Don’t give me your pity,” he snaps. “I don’t deserve it, and I don’t want it. This is what has to be done. You want to exorcise him from me, but until that happens, I have to learn to live with him inside me. Sacrifices must be made, and I will do everything I can to never let it be either of you.”
I nod, putting my hand behind his head, the other on his neck. “I understand. Alright? I understand. You did what you had to do.”
“I did,” he says. “And I don’t regret it. If someone had to die, I’m glad it was the constable. I have a black heart, Crane. I’m the devil’s pawn, a chess piece in his game. Nothing good has ever come from me, and nothing good ever will.” He gives his head a shake. “And now you’re looking at me as if you’re any different.”
I blink at him, my hands dropping away. “What are you talking about?”
“You think you get to take the moral high ground because you’re so composed, so in control, because your emotions could never get away from you like they do with me.”
“I—”
“You know my truth, Crane. But I know yours too.”
My molars press together, jaw flexing. “What truth?” I grind out.
He takes a step toward me, heat rolling off him, his face inches from mine, black eyes reflecting my anguished face. “You’re so used to your own ghosts, you don’t even see them anymore,” he says. “Vivienne Henry isn’t the only thing that haunts you. Your ex-wife does too. And in the middle of the night, she has a lot of interesting things to say about what you did.”
I suck in my breath, feeling the ground crumble beneath me.
“Namely,” he goes on, “that you murdered her.”
Chapter 23
Crane
Three years ago
I come home after class to a dark house. It’s four in the afternoon, but the fog outside the windows, coupled with all the shutters being closed and not a single candle lit, means that it’s hard to see my hand in front of my face.