Total pages in book: 78
Estimated words: 75143 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 376(@200wpm)___ 301(@250wpm)___ 250(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 75143 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 376(@200wpm)___ 301(@250wpm)___ 250(@300wpm)
Well, sometimes, but it made Dean laugh. “That sounds realistic, honestly.”
“But this is just as nice.” We’d never done anything sexual just the two of us and I wasn’t sure what I was feeling, but it was nice.
It just reminded me that I needed to get Joel’s feedback on what he thought we could do with just two of us instead of all three. But I wasn’t going to worry about that at the moment. This wasn’t about the blow jobs and sexy part of BDSM…this was the other side that we hadn’t explored as much.
The sexy part was definitely easier…and flashier.
“Yeah, it’s not as weird as I was expecting.” His total bullshit answer made me laugh. “Fine. It’s just as weird. Better?”
“Yes.” Giving him a quick peck as a reward for telling the truth, I kept up the soft touch and let him relax again. “I like honesty.”
That got me a dramatic sigh that was Joel level of ridiculous, but he nodded after a moment. “You’re right. This kind of talk…it’s got to be that way.”
We were back to him tripping over his words, so I mimed taking another deep breath, and as he obeyed, I tried to ease my way into the conversation. “I liked seeing how you took charge when he was little. You did a great job at handling it naturally and just taking care of him. I think he really liked it too.”
As I wondered if I’d pushed too much already, he swallowed hard again and then took a deep breath without prompting. After a few seconds, he found a way to talk without having to actually say anything stressful. “He liked being taken care of and he liked the bubbles and playtime. You did a good job too.”
So we’d both acknowledged that Joel was some sort of little and we’d made sure everyone knew they’d been badass caretakers.
Seemed like a good start, so I nodded and kept up the gentle caresses. “He loved the toys you bought. Those were great. I was really impressed.”
That made Dean smile, so I knew we were inching closer to the actual pieces we needed to talk about. “I saw them in the grocery store. I went down the wrong aisle and ended up near the grocery version of internet clickbait crap. But I thought he’d have fun with them. He’s…he’s silly sometimes.”
That was one word for it.
“He loved them and it made his silly side very happy.” Okay, so it was time to ease deeper into the discussion. “He’s got a naughty slut side that wants to explore everything, but he also seems to associate submission with that silly side too.”
We were starting to get into the weeds of the situation but Dean was more relaxed than I expected, so I kept up the caresses and made sure to keep my tone relaxed. “I think knowing that you’d bought him the toys made it very clear that you approved of his silly side.”
Barely nodding so he didn’t move away from my touch, Dean let out a breath and gathered his thoughts. “So now that I’ve shown him that I approve of it, he’s looking for me to take the lead on it?”
“Possibly. But I’m not sure he’s completely thought it through?” Joel was a creature of impulse most of the time. “It might just be that part of him wanting to come out and he hasn’t figured out the right way to ask for what he wants.”
“He…he might not know what to call me.” Dean’s sigh that time was more frustration than worry. “I didn’t make that very clear.”
“Hey, neither of us were sure if he knew what he was doing.” I wasn’t sure if Dean had known what he was doing, but at some point, he seemed to have figured it out. “But I think there was one moment where he almost called you Daddy.”
I wasn’t sure if that would make Dean feel better or not, and his confused expression didn’t give me enough to go on. “He’s done a lot of research and he’s really fucking nosy. Age play has to be on his list of stuff he’s curious about. He probably just got distracted by the tails and other stuff because he was ready to have someone play with his ass.”
Dean groaned but he didn’t argue with me. “And we never talked about it.”
“It wasn’t something he’d mentioned wanting to explore, so I was focused on other stuff.” Keeping up with the dirty to-do list that Joel had given me had been hard enough. “It was a lot to learn, so I stuck with the parts I was confident he’d want to do first.”
Chuckling softly, Dean closed his eyes and leaned into my hand. “Yeah, that was basically what I did too.”
“So, see? There’s nothing to worry about with that.” Not yet, anyway. “We’re just going to tackle one thing at a time.”