Total pages in book: 90
Estimated words: 83970 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 420(@200wpm)___ 336(@250wpm)___ 280(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83970 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 420(@200wpm)___ 336(@250wpm)___ 280(@300wpm)
I kiss the top of her head and stroke her back gently even though the anger I feel for her husband is at a fucking boiling point.
“I don’t know if I can have kids.”
And that rage tips over. I vow to myself to make sure the man pays for every second of pain he caused this woman, and every minute of heartache she will have to live with even now that he’s gone.
I stay silent because what can I say? Everything will be okay? I don’t know that. I can’t imagine what it would be like for a woman to want something so bad and because of reasons beyond her control, she never will. I know the level of pain I have in my chest, and I imagine it is hundred fold for her. Not seeing this woman carrying my child will be heartbreaking, but it pales in comparison to what a woman would feel.
***
I might have saved such a serious conversation for a different time had I known the direction it would turn. Emmalyn was extremely quiet after our discussion, and as much as I wanted to sink into her as a way to take her mind off of it, the idea just felt wrong.
I didn’t know what to do and had no words for her. I was completely unprepared for her answer. My heart lit up the second she told me she wanted to have my babies, and I was crushed the next second when she told me she might not be able to. I held her to my chest and died a little inside. She mentioned later that it was something a doctor told her in passing after a brutal attack by Bobby. I can honestly say I hate him even more than some of the terrorist bastards I’ve been hired to seek out and destroy.
I left her sleeping in our bed because I have a meeting with my guys to discuss what our game plan is going to be from now on.
Sitting at the head of the table where I’ve always felt the most power and control has a different feeling when the person we are trying to protect is the woman I love with my entire heart. This isn’t close to home; it’s literally in the middle of my house.
This feud started years ago with Wrench and it’s just festered like a disease every minute he was here. This is the point of no return. He was lucky he was able to walk away after he tried to rape Emmalyn. He wouldn’t have if the other guys hadn’t come in and pulled me off of him. I wish we were alone that day because he wouldn’t even be an issue right now.
The only other time I’ve had the urge to kill on domestic soil was my father and the acts of terrorism that have been committed heinously in the United States. Never once, until Wrench, have I not had the control to just walk away from something that I’ve been forced to deal with.
I should feel bad. I should be ashamed of the horrendous things I’ve imagined doing to him when I play back the different ways that day with Emmalyn could have gone, the way I wanted them to go. I don’t. Not one ounce of remorse, and I only pray now that when he makes his move on me that I have the opportunity to spit on his dying body.
Wrench’s betrayal, in my eyes, is much more reprehensible than Bobby’s. He was in my house when he tried to assault her. He wronged me personally for trying to take something of mine, to hurt the woman I love. It won’t be tolerated. My only worry at this point is one of the other guys getting the shot at him first.
“We have some decisions to make,” I tell the group of guys in front of me. Every patched member of the Cerberus MC is here. Their families, all of which are here at the clubhouse, are in tight quarters and uncomfortable.
They turn all of their attention to the head of the table.
“As much as I would love it, I’m not looking for vigilanty justice here. We don’t move on Wrench and that other piece of shit until they move on us.” I want to grin at the grumbling I hear from a few guys. I’ve already had to shut down talk of a few of the guys going out and taking care of the husband before he can make a move on the club.
“That being said, I think we need to bring in local law enforcement. These two assholes aren’t worth going to jail or even being indicted over.” I watch as heads nod in agreement.
I turn my attention to Shadow. “What have we found out?”