Total pages in book: 70
Estimated words: 66863 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 334(@200wpm)___ 267(@250wpm)___ 223(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 66863 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 334(@200wpm)___ 267(@250wpm)___ 223(@300wpm)
“You want my nut? Want me to fill your hole? Make you my sweet little cum dump?”
“Yes, Daddy. Please.” I needed it like I needed air in my lungs. Like I needed blood to pump through my veins.
Kieran thrust hard and I felt it then. His dick swelled, hot spurts of cum pumping into my ass. He leaned forward, thrust again as he kissed my temple so lovingly.
“You are so beautiful like this. When you let go. Your submission is a gift.”
And then I could have sworn I heard him say, “You are a gift,” as he pulled out, rolled me on top of him and held me. I didn’t have the strength to do anything other than sleep.
*
It was still dark when I woke up. My body was still draped over Kieran’s. He had a hand at my ass and one in my hair.
I could tell by the way he breathed that he was awake. Somehow, I knew he had yet to sleep.
I waited, knowing he would realize I was awake, somehow knowing his mind was heavy.
“Our families were close,” Kieran told me and I knew he was talking about the boy he’d loved when he was a teenager.
“I loved him. I think I’d always loved him. He was quiet, and shy and kind. He looked at the world so differently from me. Even then I ran off logic more than anything. He had his head in the clouds and it fascinated me.”
I could hear the nostalgia in his voice, and I was jealous of it.
“Neither of us were out to our families. Both of us knew they wouldn’t accept it. We stole moments when we could and we loved fiercely.”
My heart slammed against my chest, maybe vibrated through his as I listened. As I wanted him. And as I hurt, because I didn’t want Kieran to have loved anyone that way when I knew he didn’t love me.
“I’ll spare you all the details but they found out about everything. He’d said I’d tricked him…that I…had forced him.”
“Oh God,” I whispered before I tried to push up so I could look at him. Kieran’s hand knotted in my hair and kept me in place.
“I didn’t have him as I had you…the way I have men now. That’s not it and I don’t connect the two, but he left me. He blamed me and he made me blame myself. He made me question myself.”
He’d broken Kieran’s heart. I could hear it etched in the pain of his words.
“I lost him and my family. There were no charges and no proof. They swept it under the rug. My family thought I was immoral—a rapist. Can you imagine what they would think now?” He chuckled but there was no true pleasure to his laugh.
“There is nothing wrong with what we do. With what we desire. That was a bad joke.”
Yes, it really was.
“It was tough. Despite them keeping it in the families, people had their guesses. The whole town turned against me—small towns are good that way.”
I realized then why he didn’t understand my fascination of tight-knit communities.
“As I said, I’d already planned to go to college in America. He was supposed to as well. He stayed, I left as soon as I could. None of them have ever spoken to me again.”
I understood what he was saying—why he told me this tonight. He’d felt something change with us too. He knew I had fallen in love with him, and he was telling me he was afraid to do the same.
“You never let yourself fall in love after that?” I asked. He was forty-six. It was a long time ago.
“Yes, I did and that ended even worse. I can’t let myself do it again, boy. If we’re going to continue, you have to understand that. I won’t let myself fail you, and I can’t let myself love you. You’ll get hurt.”
But I couldn’t understand it. Or maybe I could but I wouldn’t accept it. Kieran deserved love and I wanted it from him. I’d never been strong enough to truly fight for anything in my life—not outside of being a lawyer. I’d never been strong enough to let myself feel, but he’d broken me out of my self-imposed cage. He’d freed me, and there was nothing more in the world I wanted than to do it for Kieran too.
I made a promise to myself in that moment, a silent confession Kieran couldn’t hear, to love him so deeply, to serve him so well, he wouldn’t be able to deny me.
I smiled into the dark, and pretended to accept the fate Kieran thought he’d sealed for us. “I understand,” I whispered. “Yes, Daddy.”
But I wouldn’t give up until I freed Kieran the way he’d freed me.