Jake Understood (Jake #2) Read Online Penelope Ward

Categories Genre: Alpha Male, Angst, Chick Lit, College, Contemporary, Erotic, New Adult, Romance, Young Adult Tags Authors: Series: Jake Series by Penelope Ward
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Total pages in book: 96
Estimated words: 92930 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 465(@200wpm)___ 372(@250wpm)___ 310(@300wpm)
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Why is he with her and not with me?

This self-torture continued through the night. Tossing and turning, I finally fell asleep around four in the morning, only to wake up at six in the same state of mind.

Jake couldn’t see me like this. It would ruin what was supposed to be a happy time. I needed to take some time today and calm down before I told him about the baby. My being in this state would tarnish the whole pregnancy announcement.

If I left before he got here, it might freak him out. So, the plan would be to wait until he arrived and then leave for a while to grab my bearings. The only way he’d let me leave was if I was adamant about it.

I received a text about 6:30 a.m.

Road is finally opened. Thank God. Leaving now. Be home soon.

I got my coat on and threw a hat over my head so that I would be prepared when he came in. I sat in the same spot waiting.

Forty minutes later, the door latched open.

My heart beat faster as I took in the sight of my husband. His flattened hair stuck to the sides of his head. He had bags under his glowing green eyes. He was still the most gorgeous man I’d ever laid eyes on.

Jake ran to me and planted his nose in my neck, releasing a deep breath into me. His skin was cold to the touch. “What a nightmare last night was. They discharged her. She’s back at the group home now.” He squeezed me tighter. “God, Nina. It feels so fucking good to be home.”

Doing everything in my power to fight back tears, I reluctantly pushed back. Even though I was tempted to stay in the safety and warmth of his arms, my mood was out of control, and it would ruin everything. I had to cool it, and that meant leaving.

“Why do you have your coat on?”

“I need to get out for a while. I didn’t want you to come home and not find me.”

“What? Why? Is it because I spent the night at the hospital?”

That wasn’t entirely the issue, but I implied that it was. “What do you think?”

“Baby, I—”

“Listen, last night was just a really rough night. You’ve never not come home before. Ever. I just…I got upset. It’s not only that. I need to clear my mind. I’ll be fine. I just need some space.”

“Nina, I’m sorry. But I just don’t understand.”

“Please don’t call me and don’t text me, okay? I’m serious. I just need to be alone for a while.”

The terrified look on his face didn’t stop me. I closed the door behind me and never looked back.

***

The stormy weather of the previous day had given way to a beautiful morning as mounds of white snow reflected the bright rays of the sun.

After a few hours of roaming our neighborhood and two stops into a couple of different restaurants that were open for breakfast, my exact destination was still unclear. Ice crunched beneath my Ugg boots as I continued to stroll along the side streets, still not ready to go home.

When I got to the tracks along Beacon Street, a Green Line trolley approached in the distance. It eventually screeched to a halt in front of me, and the doors opened. I impulsively got inside without paying attention to where it was headed.

I shut my eyes and let the swaying motion of the trolley ride calm me as I thought about the baby growing inside of me. The timing of my first pregnancy couldn’t have been worse. It was in the midst of first finding out about Ivy and dealing with all of the changes to Jake’s and my relationship that came along with that. The stress leading up to A.J’s birth was unprecedented and helped create the perfect storm that led to a really rough time after he was born.

I was determined that this baby would come into the world under different circumstances. Whatever demons or insecurities that remained inside of me needed to be eradicated in the next nine months.

Something written in pen on the back of the seat in front of me caught my eye.

Replace Fear of the Unknown with Curiosity.

I’d had a lot of fears in my lifetime. With Jake’s help, I was able to overcome many of them. But when you’re a fearful person by nature, often times, old fears are simply replaced with brand new ones. Ivy had been at the root of my anxieties from the moment I first found out about her. Even though Jake never gave me a reason to feel insecure, I couldn’t help it. Because I’d never met her, had never even seen what she looked like, she was like this mythical creature that held a small part of my husband’s heart. The times I became most insecure were the times that I focused on that one small part I didn’t have, rather than the majority I owned.


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