Total pages in book: 80
Estimated words: 78257 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 391(@200wpm)___ 313(@250wpm)___ 261(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 78257 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 391(@200wpm)___ 313(@250wpm)___ 261(@300wpm)
“And that’s a touchdown, folks! First one of the game for the home team!” The announcer’s voice blares as the Wildcats score. I put my eyes on the field to see what’s going on. I was supposed to meet the Chi Omegas and walk over with them, but in the end, I needed some time alone to pump myself up before heading to the stadium. Part of me almost didn’t come, but eventually, I threw my clothes on and drove over here.
It isn’t long before my eyes find Ryker’s jersey as he jogs off the field to let the defense go on.
Our seats are close enough that when he reaches the bench and stalks toward the quarterback coach, I feel as if I can’t breathe. He’s magnificent dressed in his uniform. Broad shoulders. Tapered waist. Tightly muscled arms.
He takes off his helmet and whips his hair out of his face. It feels like forever since we spoke though I know it was just yesterday in the early hours.
Time moves differently when we aren’t together. Slugging along.
I grab my purse and put on lipstick, freshening up my cherry red. I contemplate sucking on a lollipop, but I forgot to bring any.
He looks up, his gaze searching the crowd, up and down the rows until finally he finds me. The air stands still and nothing seems to move as we look at each other.
I can’t make out the details, but his face softens. He closes his eyes briefly and when he looks at me again, I imagine I see regret on his visage. Amid the screams of the crowd and over the heads of the cheerleaders, he mouths something at me.
I shake my head at him and hold my hands up. No clue.
Do I care what he’s saying?
Part of me does. I want this anvil off my chest.
“What’s he saying?” Charisma murmurs.
“I don’t know.”
She looks from him to me. “Uh, are you sure? Because it’s pretty clear to me what that is.”
“I don’t know!”
He waves his hands and tries again, but another player comes along and gets his attention. He turns his head to look at the field then stares back at me. The other team has given up the ball, and it’s his turn to head back out. He sends me a final look and takes off for the huddle.
I watch him.
“Seriously? You didn’t see what he said?” She’s looking at me like I have two heads.
“No.”
She exhales, a thoughtful look on her face. “Let me ask you something: have you ever done or said something you really regretted like a second later?”
I nod.
“Have you done it recently?”
I think. “I manipulated Ryker into coming to the party. I made him feel like a commodity. His words.”
“Right. Sometimes we do and say not so great things to get the thing we really want—even at the expense of others.”
My lips tighten. “He bragged about having sex with me.”
“He’s a man. He reacted like a Neanderthal. Plus, dude, he’s never been in a relationship. He doesn’t know how to act. You’ve got to train him up right.” She gives her little whip a crack.
I nod. “So what was he saying?”
She gives me a little smile. “Pen, that’s something you’ll have to ask him yourself.”
A couple of hours later, the game is over. We beat Georgia 7 to 35 and the fans are intense and excited. Without a loss yet, it looks like we might have a championship year.
I’ve left the field and am in the parking lot almost to my new Volkswagen—yes, I’m driving it—when I get a ping on my phone. I dive into my purse.
Part of me wants it to be Ryker.
I think about those words in my dad’s office: Live love, breathe love, give love.
My phone pings again before I can find it, and I let out a groan of frustration. It’s at the bottom of my purse. I let out an aggravated yell then finally snag it and yank it out.
It’s him. My hands shake.
Hey.
The parking section I’m in is mostly deserted with no one around, so I drop my purse to the ground and hold my phone like it’s a grenade.
What do I do? What do I say?
Hey, I send back. Great game.
Thanks. You busy?
Only about to host the party of the year. No, I type.
Really? Don’t you have the party?
We’re texting like nothing is wrong, but I feel the undercurrent, the reality that we are different now. Vulnerable.
Yeah.
I’m not coming. I just wanted you to know I got the message from Blaze.
Okay.
He sends another text. There’s something I’ve been wanting to say and I just haven’t found the right way—
The screen goes blank and I realize my phone has died.
“No!” I shout up at nothing in particular and let out a growl of frustration. I stomp my foot.
“Penelope.” The voice is deep and husky.