Total pages in book: 79
Estimated words: 77824 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 389(@200wpm)___ 311(@250wpm)___ 259(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 77824 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 389(@200wpm)___ 311(@250wpm)___ 259(@300wpm)
When I finally get a life-saving kidney transplant, I think the worst is behind me.
Boy, am I wrong.
I start feeling eyes on me wherever I go.
I’m being watched. Stalked. Hunted.
It’s downright scary.
Then the hunter steps out of the shadows, and my life implodes.
I’m taken by Renzo Torrisi, a dangerous and unforgiving man.
Turns out the kidney I received belonged to one of his men and I have to repay the debt. Only the terms are unclear, and the rules change on a whim.
Held prisoner in his penthouse, I have to serve the ruthless mafia boss like the god he is.
Whether I’ll survive being Renzo’s captive is up for debate, though.
STANDALONE: A Mafia Romance full-length novel.
WARNING: 18+ only. Please read responsibly.
THIS NOVEL CONTAINS TRIGGERING CONTENT.
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Songlist
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Thousand Eyes – Of Monsters and Men
Oats In The Water – Ben Howard
In The Shadows – Amy Stroup
Raise The Dead – Rachel Rabin
Do You Really Want To Hurt Me – Denmark + Winter
Warm Shado – Fink
It Had To Be You – Tommee Profitt, Tiffany Ashton
When It’s All Over – RAIGN
Silhouettes – Of Monster and Men
Crystals – Of Monsters and Men
Get On The Road – Tired Pony
“Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.”
–— Lucius Annaeus Seneca
Chapter 1
Skylar
Renzo; 35. Skylar; 30.
Life used to be amazing.
Dame, the restaurant where I worked as a sous chef, had just gotten their first Michelin Star because of me.
I had an interview lined up at one of the top restaurants in New York.
If I got the position as head chef, I would’ve been able to create my own signature dishes.
I was on fire and was ticking off one goal after the other.
But the higher you fly, the harder you fall.
And boy, did I fall.
Lying in the hospital bed with a dialysis machine humming next to me, I try to process what Dr. Bentall said.
End-stage renal disease. I’m out of time. If I don’t get a transplant soon, I’ll die.
At thirty.
My fabulous life came to a crashing halt three years ago when I was in a car accident with Mom. Mom was in a coma for eight months before we made the heartbreaking decision to take her off life support.
I thought that was the darkest moment of my life, but things just kept getting worse. Dad has flown in the best doctors from around the world and paid so much money, but nothing has worked.
After the car accident, my shattered pelvis healed. My reconstructed bladder is functioning. But the damage done to my kidneys is irreversible. If it weren’t for dialysis, I would’ve died months ago, but now, not even that’s enough.
I need a kidney in the next couple of weeks, or I’ll die.
Slowly, my gaze shifts to the tubes filled with my blood.
Twenty minutes ago, Dad left with Dr. Bentall, and I haven’t seen them since.
The past three years have been torturous for me, but it’s been a hell of a lot worse for Dad. He lost Mom, and now he’s going to lose me as well.
Every time I look at him, I see the feverish panic in his eyes. The desperation to find a kidney for me is etched in deep lines on his face.
I hate seeing what my deteriorating health is doing to Dad.
I hate that he has to watch me slowly die.
I hate that I’m stuck in this hospital bed, and a machine is fighting to keep me alive.
Is it even worth it?
There are dark moments where I feel it would be better for me to die right now. It would stop the torture, and Dad would be able to mourn my death before going on with his life.
I’m tired of the sword hanging over my head.
I’m tired of just existing until my next dialysis.
What is life if it’s not filled with hopes and dreams? What’s left when all possibilities have been stripped from it?
It’s morbid and soul-destroyingly tiring.
I can’t do this anymore.
Movement by the door pulls me out of my dark thoughts, and I lift my eyes to where Dad’s staring at me with excruciating grief already carved into his face.
Unable to wallow in the death blow that I’ve been dealt, I have to be strong for my father.
Somehow a smile curves my lips. “It’s going to be okay, Daddy.”
He shakes his head, his red-rimmed eyes welling with tears.
Coming closer, Dad sits down on the side of the bed and takes my hand in both of his. With his head bowed it looks like the weight of the world rests on his shoulders.
“It’s okay,” I whisper.
He shakes his head again and clears his throat before his eyes meet mine. For the longest moment, Dad just stares at me as if he’s memorizing every inch of my face.
He clears his throat again, then says, “We’re not giving up. Be strong for a little while longer. Okay?”
I don’t have any strength left, Daddy.
Knowing I can’t speak the words out loud, I lie, “Okay, I will.”
From his hopeless expression, I can see he doesn’t believe me.
That’s all we’ve done for the past few months. Lie.
Not a single word of truth has passed between us.
I stare at the man who’s raised me as his own. When he met Mom, I was six years old, and not a day has passed where he’s treated me like a stepdaughter.
He’s the best person I know, and I hate seeing him like this.
Unable to keep up the act, tears flood my eyes, and I whisper, “I love you, Daddy.”
He lowers his head and presses a kiss to the back of my hand. His fingers tremble as he tightens his grip on mine.