Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 83085 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 415(@200wpm)___ 332(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83085 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 415(@200wpm)___ 332(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
Our tongues swiped at each other. Josh’s hands went to my hips, and he groaned into my mouth. My cock started to swell, my pulse a sharp staccato against my skin.
When we pulled away, I wanted to drag Josh back to me. Lay him down and explore his body, chasing the pleasure that had escaped me my whole damn life.
He broke the moment with, “I talked to Kell.”
My heart dropped. No matter how brave a front I put up, I needed Kellan to understand this, to accept it, because damn, I wanted him in my corner, but I also wasn’t sure if this could hurt him. “Okay. Tell me about it while I finish lunch. I’m making Italian subs.”
Josh nodded and followed me into the kitchen. We washed our hands, and I continued putting together the food as he said, “It went okay. He was shocked, and not gonna lie, he’s worried.”
“He’s not pissed at you, right? He doesn’t have the right to be. It already didn’t sit well with me to let you deal with it, but I won’t have him taking it out on you.”
“My hero,” Josh teased, and I rolled my eyes. “Seriously, though, you don’t have to be the superhero in every situation. I can take care of myself, and like I told you at the cabin, you deserve someone to watch out for you too.”
I didn’t know why he was making such a big deal about what I’d said. “I’m not trying to be anything other than what I am. I’m not trying to save the day. I just want to be fair.”
“There’s not an unfair bone in your body, Griffin Caine.” Josh pressed against me from behind. I closed my eyes, savoring the heat of him, the press of his lips against the back of my neck.
“This is quite the change from us griping at each other and flipping each other off.”
“We can do that too, if you want. It’s kind of fun.”
I chuckled. He stepped away, making me miss the contact instantly. Josh was quickly becoming addictive.
We finished preparing lunch and ate sandwiches and chips. He told me how it went with Kellan, and as he did, something felt off with him. I couldn’t put my finger on what it was, but there was this edge of sadness to him I wasn’t even sure he knew he showed. Or maybe I was losing my damn mind. “You okay today?” I finally asked.
He frowned like he hadn’t expected me to ask or notice. “Yeah, just working through some shit in my head, is all.”
“Anything I can help with?”
“You getting naked would do the trick.” Josh waggled his eyebrows playfully.
Where a few weeks ago his comment would have grated on my nerves, now it set off sparks beneath my skin. “Always thinking about sex, huh?” I joked.
“Have you seen you? I think it’ll be impossible to keep sex off my brain.”
We both laughed. Somehow I could tell he was kidding. Not that I didn’t think Josh would be game if I got naked, but it seemed like he was trying to deflect. “We have the same days off,” I mused. It was Sunday, and we’d both have today and the next day.
“It’s almost like it’s meant to be.”
“Do you have plans?” This was supposed to be about sex, and I wanted the sex, really fucking bad, but Josh was also my friend. I wanted to spend some time with him, wanted to try and make him feel the smile he was currently using to hide whatever he was upset about.
“I do now,” Josh countered. “Where are you taking me?”
Well, shit. I wasn’t sure about that. An idea pulled at the back of my brain, though, something I hadn’t done in a long time. “The fair is in town. Do you like that kind of stuff?”
A grin spread across Josh’s face. “Aw, Griffy. You’re asking me on a real date, aren’t you? Will you kiss me on top of the Ferris wheel?”
I rolled my eyes. “You’re ridiculous.”
“But I make you smile. I don’t know how I didn’t see that before.”
“Here we go with the cocky stuff again.”
“Oh, you mean the truth? Yes, I’m a fan.”
“You know what? I changed my mind. I don’t want to go out with you.”
When Josh replied, his voice was more serious again. “Yeah, Griff, you do.” Damned if he wasn’t right. “Guess it’s a good thing I want to go out with you too.”
Josh hung out downstairs while I went up to shower and get dressed. Part of me wondered if I should shoot a quick message to Kellan since Josh had told him about us. We should talk, and I wanted to make sure everything was okay, but something kept me from making the call. Right then I just wanted to go enjoy my day with Josh. If I called Kellan, that would delay it, and knowing myself, I’d sit around trying too hard to keep things on an even keel even if Kellan did say everything was fine. I had a habit of worrying, as my brother had told me more than once, and right then, I was so damn tired of it. I just wanted to be.