Total pages in book: 160
Estimated words: 158635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 793(@200wpm)___ 635(@250wpm)___ 529(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 158635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 793(@200wpm)___ 635(@250wpm)___ 529(@300wpm)
Jeremy: What do you think will happen?
Cecily: Would you stop answering with questions?
Jeremy: Would you stop being so standoffish?
He did it again. He’s such a wanker, I swear.
Cecily: I’m not standoffish.
Jeremy: You’re always walking with your nose in the air or in a book, as if the world doesn’t deserve your time or energy. You also have this habit of pulling away from crowds and spending as much time indoors as possible. Standoffish is me putting it nicely. To be more accurate, you’re an asocial snob with trust issues.
My leg bounces again, and this time, I don’t care about my classmates’ stares as I glare at the phone.
This bastard is able to rile me up with a few words, and I’m not even the type who’s easily provoked. I’m the most levelheaded of my friends. Hell, I’m the one they come to, to end fights, but right now?
I’m seething. Volcano-like steam explodes from my pores and it takes everything in me not to curse.
Cecily: And you’re an arrogant, monstrous, absolutely appalling existence with antisocial tendencies. Oh, and a stalker. But you don’t see me talking about that :)
I sent the last smiley face for extra effect.
Jeremy: By all means. If psychoanalyzing and slapping labels on me gives you peace of mind, do it all you like.
Cecily: You’re a break-and-entry criminal. Also, a creep who goes into places he wasn’t invited to.
Jeremy: No breaking was involved. And am I really considered a creep if your cunt drenched my face while you were coming apart on my mouth? I can still taste you on my tongue. Ten-star meal. Would try again.
I’m surprised no one besides me sees the fire consuming me from the inside out. My face is so heated that I grab my bottle of water with an unsteady hand and nearly finish it in one go.
But that does nothing to quench the thirst.
When the hell did it become so hot in here?
Jeremy: You still there? Get it together and breathe. Don’t vomit just because I was reminiscing about your sweet taste or else it’ll be embarrassing in class. We really need to work on your prude tendencies.
My gaze strays sideways, studying, searching, and coming up empty. Is he here somewhere?
No, he couldn’t be. One, he’s not an REU student, and while that can’t stop him, his presence would give him away. There’s no way I would’ve missed his beast-like physique and harsh stares.
Cecily: How did you know I was in class?
Jeremy: I know everything about you.
Cecily: Are you still…stalking me?
Jeremy: Are you still looking behind your back to search for me?
I touch the side of my nose and then let my hand fall to my lap.
Cecily: I’m not searching for you. I just want to see you so I can avoid you.
As soon as I send the text, I contemplate unsending it. No idea why.
It’s true. All I ever wanted was to avoid Jeremy, so why am I plagued with these types of thoughts?
The moment he reads it, a stupid sensation of regret courses through me.
He doesn’t reply right away, and when he does, my spine jerks upright.
Jeremy: You still search for me.
Cecily: Did you miss the part where I want to avoid you?
Jeremy: I only read the part where you want to see me.
Cecily: I don’t want to see you.
Jeremy: Does that mean the DM from last night wasn’t meant for me?
I pause and clench my fingers around the phone. That’s a good question. Was that message meant for him? I was so sure I clicked on Landon’s IG profile, but I didn’t.
It doesn’t take a genius to figure out Lan wasn’t the one I wanted. Messaging Jeremy wasn’t a drunken mistake. It was what I was secretly yearning for since that night at the Heathens’ mansion.
I just needed liquid courage so I could act on it.
Cecily: Can you forget about that?
He takes a few moments to reply, and when he does, the tone reads final. Clipped.
Jeremy: Be there tonight, and remember the word that can end it all. Smoke, was it? That’s the only courtesy I will give you. If you hide, we’ll do it my way.
My fingers shake so badly that I nearly drop the phone.
There’s no need for him to voice it so I’ll understand what will happen tonight.
Jeremy will pick up where he left off that night in the forest.
He’s going to chase me.
My heartbeat escalates at the prospect, and I drop the bottle of water in my attempt to grab it.
I reach down for it, but a masculine hand picks it up and offers it to me. “Here.”
My gaze meets with that of one of my classmates, Zayn. He’s quiet, like me, definitely studious, and has a peaceful aura like a Buddhist monk’s.
He dresses in designer jeans and shoes and has a prim hairstyle.
We’ve been in the same classes for the past four years, since secondary school, and we’ve barely spoken to each other. But I’ve always appreciated his low-key presence.